Harry Leferts
Arms crossed, Fubuki watched as "Aniki", or as she now knew his name to be, Rokurou, was examined by a Medi-Wizard. Beside her, one of the Kyoto Aurors scratched his head and groaned, "This is just lovely."
Eyebrow raised, the Destroyer frowned at him. She had gotten in contact via radio with Kana who, in turn, passed on the information to Ooyodo who got in touch with the JNHRO. From there, the Kyoto Aurors were informed and promptly showed up quickly. One of them had panicked a bit, though to their credit, they only fingered their wand at seeing Fubuki still holding the wizard causing all the trouble's crushed hand in hers. His boss had quickly stepped between them and asked about what had happened. After a quick explanation, he had called in the Medi-wizard to check over the wizard.
Which lead to the current issue.
Frowning, Fubuki looked at him, "And what does that mean?"
Only grimacing, the Auror shook his head and turned to her with a sigh, "His Otou-San is pretty high up in the Diet. Sure, he's not that high up in his family, but his old man? He's going to be causing us some trouble to say the least. Probably going to try and get us to release him."
A sneer on his face, Rokurou snorted, "That's right, you bitch. My Otou-San will get me out easy and then?" He grinned nastily, "Those kids are fucked!" Laughing darkly, he raised an eyebrow at Fubuki's narrowing eyes, "What? Did you think that they would be sent to safety or something? Fuck no! I'm going to see them thrown in the Reserves and fucked over nice and good."
Not saying anything, Fubuki looked at him with her face expressionless. When she spoke, it was with a flatness that made the Kyoto Aurors flinch, "Is that so..."
Yet again, the Kyoto Auror beside her flinched before sighing. Running his hand through his hair, he shook his head, "As much as I would hate to admit it, he's probably right." Grimacing, he looked Fubuki in the eye, which made her respect for him raise a little, "I wish that I could guarantee those kids' safety, but I can't. His old man has enough power that he might be able to get arrest warrants out. And added that only certain orphanages can take them in..."
Slowly, Fubuki nodded, "I see." Tilting her head to the side, she hummed, "Tell me, is his Otou-San a Yakuza?"
Lost at why she was asking, the Auror glanced at the others who shrugged. Turning back to her, he cleared his throat, "Uh, no? Why does that matter?"
Fubuki stepped forward and gave Rokurou a frigid smile, "Everything." Leaning down, she stared into the confused wizard's eyes, "Because you see, they are going to be very pissed off with what you have been doing here. The fact that you were acting and pretending like you were Yakuza? Heh."
Bravado coming back, Rokurou sneered at her, "So what? They can go and get fucked for all I care! Why the hell would I worry about some useless No-Majs?"
Only tilting her head, the shipgirls hummed, "You know, I always did wonder..." Trailing off, she chuckled though there was nothing humorous about it, "What it would be like to see someone who is stupid enough to die from their idiocy and overconfidence." Rather than say anything else, she turned to the Auror, "If I may make a suggestion, Inoue-San?"
Just nodding, the Auror frowned, "Sure? Go ahead."
With a hum, Fubuki gestured at the kids, "Interview them here, one by one. Not out of sight, but get it here."
More than a little lost, he nodded, "Uh, sure? That makes some sense and wouldn't be too much trouble as we need some initial statements...?"
The Auror than made a gesture to one of the other Officers with him, and Fubuki lead her over to where the kids were all clustered together, the Destroyer's own medical fairies looking them over. When they reached them, the Kitsune who had stolen from her looked up with sad eyes, "F-Fubuki-San? Um... Thank you, but..."
Crouching down, Fubuki gave her a smile before shaking her head, "You heard?" Getting a nod, she reached over and placed her hand on the Kitsune's head, gently rubbing her head, "Hey, look at me." When the Yokai did so, the shipgirl smiled and leaned in, "Trust me, that is not going to happen."
Beside the Kitsune, one of the two Oni there shook her head, "B-but... he's not lying."
Lips curling, Fubuki gave a chuckle to their confusion, "Trust me, he may think that he's not, but he is." Winking, she continued, "Believe in me, okay? It is all going to turn out well."
Even though they didn't believe her, they nodded with various sounds of agreement, with the Kitsune swallowing, "H-hai..."
Chuckling, Fubuki shook her head, "Now then, this is very important. Ogawa-San here will interview you each, one at a time. I want you to take your time in telling her everything that 'Aniki' has done regarding you. Don't rush through it, take your time. And do not leave anything out, as unimportant as it is." Turning, she gave the lost looking Auror a smile, "Also, if she has questions, answer them."
A frown on her face, the Auror nodded and took the first one aside. One by one they spoke and told their story. Using a automated quill, the witch nodded as it wrote down everything that they said. Like Fubuki had told them, they had spoken of every little thing that had happened to them under Rokurou.
Though one part made Fubuki perk up and look at the young, female Kitsune who had stolen her name, "Your name is Fubuki?"
Lightly blushing, hard as it was to see through the dirt and grime on her, the Kitsune nodded, "Hai... my Okaa-San named me that when I was born a few months after you returned. I was named after you..." Sniffling, she shook her head, "S-she died... in one of the attacks here on Hokkaido four years ago. S-she was a Yuki-Onna and used her abilities to create an impenetrable shield of ice around me a-as Abyssal shells fell around us and used everything she had..."
Fubuki grimaced as she guessed which attack it was. While most of those who had attacked Hoppou had been killed, a few stragglers managed to make a run for Hokkaido and struck. She had been one of those who took them down with help from Akebono and the like. Walking over, Fubuki gently pulled the Kitsune into an embrace, "Your Okaa-San was a great woman, Fu-Chan. A wonderful mother, and I am honoured that she chose to name her daughter after me."
Tears coming from her eyes, the Kitsune looked up at her, "T-thank you... though, um... Fu-Chan?"
Her lip curling as she pulled out a napkin and began to dry the child's eyes, Fubuki nodded, "Hai, Fu-Chan. After all, I'm Fubuki, and Kongou-San and others sometimes call me 'Buki', so I can't call you that. Hence... Fu-Chan."
Even though she was confused about that, Fu-Chan nodded, "Um, okay...?"
Gently, Fubuki patted her head which the Kitsune enjoyed greatly. It reminded her of when she was younger and her mother was still alive. When the Kitsune turned back to the Auror, Fubuki turned her attention to the other children as well. Eventually, Ogawa was finished and rolled up the notes that were taken. She turned to Inoue and nodded, "Sir? We're done here."
Nodding, the Auror sighed, "That's good." With a sad smile, he turned to the children, "Guess that it is time for us to leave then, kids."
Part of Fubuki noticed the nasty grin on Rokurou's face, and smirked, "You're right, Inoue-San. After all..." Turning, she smiled as Yuudachi as well as Mutsuki and Kana walked into view, "The children are leaving... you brought the bus, Kana-Chan?"
Lightly blushing, the Battleship nodded, "Hai, Fubuki-Senpai."
Eyebrows furrowing, Inoue frowned, "Bus? What do you..." His eyes widened and he stared at her, "You cannot be serious!"
Turning to him, Fubuki raised one of her own eyebrows, "Deadly. The children will be coming with Kana-Chan, Yuudachi-Chan, Mutsuki-Chan, and myself. We'll make sure that they are safe and taken care of. Especially as they could be in danger from... certain parties, shall we say?"
Jaw dropped, Rokurou stared at her before whipping his head around to boggle at Inoue, "She can't do that!"
With a glance at him, Inoue turned to Fubuki, "Normally, he would be right you know. This isn't something that I could let you do."
A smile on her face, the Destroyer nodded, "Oh, I understand. But that would be normally." Still smiling, she gestured at the others, "However... right now, you have three Destroyers and one Battleship. And from what I remember, even one Destroyer would be, ah, difficult. Twenty-five millimeter can be quite nasty after all, and I have a few forties on me as well... not to mention sidearms."
Slowly humming, Inoue looked towards the fairies, noticing that they had sidearms. His lips curled upwards a bit, "Oh, you are quite right. We're outmatched." Scratching his chin, he nodded, "Yes, completely outmatched right now and it would take far too long to contact some help. A shame..."
Giving a sad smile, Fubuki sighed, "Truly a shame." Head tilting to the side, she shrugged, "We will, of course, give you access as needed to them if you need more statements. But..."
On the Auror's face was a smirk that was mirrored on his fellows' faces, "Ah, thank you for that." With a fake sigh, he backed up as he ignored Rokurou's cursing, "How unfortunate for us that such a thing happened though. And once they are on a base, well, nothing that can be done for it, I suppose."
With a nod, Fubuki turned to her fellow Destroyers, "Yuudachi-Chan? Mutsuki-Chan? I am assuming that the children have things that they would want to bring with them. Escort them as they gather what they want."
Saluting, the blonde haired shipgirl grinned, "Sure thing, Fubuki-Chan! Now come along, Poi!"
It took only a few minutes as they did not have much to gather up, though Fubuki noted that the Kitsune had what looked like a stuffed chick for a toy. Noticing the Destroyer looking at her, Fu-Chan hugged the toy close, "Okaa-San gave me her..."
Just patting her head, Fubuki nodded, "Ah, not a problem. We'll just get her all nice and clean once we're on the base." Giving a jaunty wave, she took up a rear position with Kana in the front while Yuudachi and Mutsuki took up positions on either side, "I hope that you all have a nice day, Auror-Sans!"
Lightly chuckling, Inoue grinned, "And the same to you as well, Fubuki-San."
Several minutes later, the young Yokai was looking around as the bus was running along the roads with awed looks. Hugging her stuffed companion, Fu-Chan looked up at Fubuki with the look of a child meeting their hero, "You really are doing this..."
Her arms crossed, Fubuki laughed, "Well, I did say that I was going to take care of you, didn't I?" Expression softening, she shook her head, "And I keep my promises."
Massively grinning, Yuudachi nodded, "Fubuki-Chan really does, Poi!"
For her part, Mutsuki gave her own nod and agreed, which made her friend blush. Upon hearing a stomach growl, Fubuki blinked and looked at several faces that blushed as more growls joined the first. Rather than laugh as she wanted, the Destroyer looked over her shoulder, "Kana-Chan? Mind stopping at the nearest food place? I'll pay."
Quickly, one of the younger children shook his head and waved his hands, "Y-you don't need to do that, Fubuki-San! We..." Looking down, he chewed his lip, "We can go without food for a bit. I mean, we've done it before and we're sort of dirty..."
All Fubuki did at that though was frown and narrow her eyes, "Unacceptable. You are going to get fed and I will pay for it."
Needless to say, more than a few people took pictures of Fubuki and her friends having a bunch of what looked like homeless children in a fast food place as they got them food. And a number of comments from those who watched stated that she was like a mother on a mission for her children with them. One who would not take no for an answer and cowed people who would have complained with a simple look.
By the time they left though, it was with some very full children.
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Stretching some as her bare feet touched tile, Fubuki turned and regarded the group of children. All of them looked rather nervous, with Fu-Chan holding her stuffed chicken closely. Softly smiling, the Destroyer gestured around them, "Okay everyone, we're going to get you all nice and clean before bed."
Rapidly blinking, one of the Oni Twins there stared at her, "W-wait, we're going to have a bath? Really?"
Yuudachi giggled some and nodded, "Hai! Or a shower if you want it, Poi." Looking them over, she hummed, "Might be a good idea to have a shower after you're clean and before you go into the bath."
Ignoring that, Fubuki turned to Mutsuki, "Kisaragi-Chan is getting them clothes, right?"
A smile on her face, the name ship of the Mutsuki class nodded, "She is as a matter of fact, Fubuki-Chan. It is going to take a bit more time, but she's going to have them brought straight here."
Eyes wide, Fu-Chan stared between them, "N-new clothes too!? B-but..." Tears coming to her eyes, she sniffled, "W-why?"
Blinking, she turned at the hand to find Fubuki smiling at her, "Because you deserve it. What happened to you, should never have happened. And by the time you get out of the bath, all nice and clean, I promise that you will have nice clean clothes waiting for you while we wash the others."
Just chewing her lip, the Kitsune looked at her stuffed toy. It was not the cleanest toy, but... "W-what about Chicky?"
Other children made noises about their own stuffed toys, some of the only things with them. Chuckling, Fubuki shook her head, "We're going to get them nice and clean as well." She then nodded towards the door as Kana brought in an odd looking device to the children, "Kana-Chan here has brought a steamer that we can use to clean all your friends. It won't hurt them, I promise, but it will get them all nice and clean after we wash them."
Nodding, Mutsuki brought out a metal tub and a bottle of laundry detergent, "I'll do that right here as a matter of fact so you can all watch. All your friends will be nice and clean, promise."
Unsure, Fu-Chan shuffled from one foot to the other before looking down at her toy. Trembling, she handed it over to Fubuki, "P-please..."
Gently, the shipgirl nodded, "I promise, she will be looking even better when we're done." Handing the toy off to Mutsuki who had filled up the tub, Fubuki took the hand of the Kitsune, "Now, it is time for us to get all clean."
With a nod, Fu-Chan looked towards her friend as Fubuki lead her over to the benches for them to get changed. Looking at them, the Destroyer knew that they were all nervous and took a deep breath. Then, much to their surprise, Fubuki was the first one to remove her clothes which got her wide eyes, 'W-what...'
Smiling at them, she winked, "Come on then, time to get all squeaky clean..."
It was just a few minutes later that Fu-Chan gave a squeak as warm water washed over her body. Spitting out some of the water, she blinked it away, "Gah..."
Unable to help herself, Fubuki giggled a bit as she soaped up a cloth, "Sorry about that, Fu-Chan."
Blushing, the Kitsune shook her head, "Um, that's okay, Fubuki-San..."
Cloth all soaped up, Fubuki began to gently scrub at the younger girl. If anything though, it made the Yokai blush a bit as it reminded her of when her mother used to clean her. And glancing around, she was not the only one as she could see Yuudachi helping to clean some of her friends and fellow orphans. Meanwhile, Fubuki watched as dirt and grime was slowly removed before grasping her arm, "Lift please." When Fu-Chan did so, the Destroyer scrubbed under the Kitsune's arms, getting giggles. Smiling, she giggled herself, "Ticklish?"
Only nodding, Fu-Chan smiled, "Hai."
All Fubuki did though was smile back gently before continuing her work. Once she was done with the younger girl's body, she worked a bit at the hair, working in shampoo. After that, she rinsed her off, only to begin again. Slowly, but surely, Fubuki got the likely years worth of dirtiness off to reveal pale skin. Much to her surprise, the Kitsune's hair was not quite the grey she thought, but a very light blue, 'Huh...' It was then that she remembered something, "Your Okaa-San was a Yuki-Onna, right?"
Not having expected that, Fu-Chan nodded, "Um, she was, though Tou-San was a Kitsune..." Her ears drooped a little, "He... died before I was born. Okaa-San used to tell me all about him though."
Humming as she continued to clean the young girl, the Destroyer nodded, "Is that why your hair...?"
Cheeks red, Fu-Chan nodded, "Hai, my hair is white and a bit of blue... Just like Okaa-San's hair..."
Fubuki continued to scrub gently, almost motherly, "I see. It is really beautiful you know."
Lightly smiling, all the Kitsune did was nod.
Slowly, both Fubuki and Yuudachi worked their way through the group, gently cleaning them. Clothes were soaped up, used to scrub, and then tossed into the bins. Combs were brought out to clean out hair and make sure that there was no lice, though Fubuki brought out a special shampoo that Hedwig had delivered. Said shampoo being one that killed such things as lice and fleas as well as their eggs. With that done, they had the children shower as well before leading to them the baths.
It was a group of happy, clean, and sleepy children who returned to find all their toys cleaned two hours later. Not just using washing detergent, but also steam cleaning to make sure that they were properly clean of everything. Fubuki smiled as she watched a bright, teary eyed Fu-Chan hug her beloved stuffed chick close, now no longer stained or dirty revealing it to be bright yellow. More than that, Kisaragi had shown up with new clothes, their old ones being taken away to see if they could be cleaned.
With that done, it was time for bed. Much to the amusement of the others, Fu-Chan and some of the other children grasped Fubuki's hands close as she guided them to the dorms set up for visiting shipgirls. While not a permanent shipgirl base, Sapporo's JMSDF base that was built after the war started did have dormitories for visiting shipgirls. Dormitories that were now getting used by the young orphans.
For her part though, Fubuki simply sat in a chair, softly singing as the various children drifted off to sleep, exhausted, but happy and feeling safe. Watching that, Yuudachi giggled as she "Spoke" to Mutsuki over the radio, {Fubuki-Chan really is like a Okaa-San, Poi.}
Giggling softly, Mutsuki gave a nod, {Hai, she is, Yuudachi-Chan.} A sigh then escaped her, {Fubuki-Chan will make for a good Okaa-San.}
Just giving them looks, Fubuki huffed a bit as she continued to sing, the children all falling asleep, {I can hear you, you know.} Getting giggles, she rolled her eyes before frowning, {Guys? Thanks.}
All her friends did though was shake their heads at her. Out of the four, Kisaragi scoffed over the radio, {Bah! You don't need to thank us for this, Fubuki-Chan.} Walking over, she gently kissed the other Destroyer on the cheek, {We don't mind it at all.}
With a deep breath, Fubuki let it out, {I know, but I do appreciate it. And...} Lips pressing thinly together, she shook her head, {I hate to bother you all, but I need you to keep watch over them tomorrow, I... have a meeting with someone that cannot wait. Which Ooyodo-San set up for me.}
It went without saying that the other four understood what sort of meeting was being talked about. Walking over to a chair of her own, Kana shook her head, {They're all so small and...I cannot believe it. Are we lucky, or are they unlucky?}
Sighing, Fubuki shook her head as she gently brushed one of Fu-Chan's blue bangs away from her face, {I do not know...} She watched as the Kitsune's ears twitched and she held her stuffed toy closer...
The ghostly hull of a late war Destroyer overlaying her body as several more ghostly ships were around some of the other children...
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For a moment, Fubuki took a deep breath before she let it slowly out. It misted in the cold, winter air. A short time ago, she left the base behind and headed back into the city. Most of the children were not sure about her leaving them, but Fu-Chan convinced them to trust in her. And if there was one thing that Fubuki was going to do...
It was going to make sure that she was worthy of that trust.
Stepping into the darkened resturant, she gave her coat to one of the staff members. Briefly, she straightened her skirt and blouse, somewhat worried. After all, it was one of her nicest, semi-formal outfits. But, Fubuki knew that she had to make an impression and thus did not show her nerves. Like in a battle out on the waves, this one needed her to be steel.
Back straight and showing no weaknesses, she walked behind the staff member leading her to a room in the back. Inside, seated at a table was an older man with his head bald and shining in the low light. Part of Fubuki noted the large scar on his neck, as well as how one finger was missing a knuckle. But she showed none of that and bowed deeply as he stood, "Ishida-San, thank you for taking time out of your day to see to This One's insignificant needs."
However, much to Fubuki's surprise, the old man bowed just as deeply to her, "It is of no worry, Fubuki-San. In fact, it is an honour that one such as you wished to speak to me of a matter important to you." Standing back up, he waved at a chair, "Please, take a seat and allow for me to make an order. The Sake here is quite good."
Only smiling, Fubuki nodded, "Thank you, though I ask that I treat you as well."
That got her a raised eyebrow, but he nodded. Shortly, food was brought before them and a young woman served them both before bowing and backing away until needed again. Taking a sip of her Sake, the Destroyer nodded which made the older man nod before he did the same, "Ah, as I said, it is quite good."
Lips curling, the shipgirl chuckled, "Yes, it is."
Breaking apart his chopsticks, he took some food, "Now then, from what Ooyodo-San stated, you wished to speak to me of events yesterday? First, allow for me to apologize in regards to the theft. Such a thing should never have happened to one such as you, let alone at all."
Eyes narrowing slightly, Fubuki frowned, "I... suspect that I am not the only one with such troubles." A slight nod was the only answer, and so she continued, "To that end, the issue has been... resolved, to some satisfaction. I, personally, caught the thief responsible and found several others."
With a hum as he took a bite, Ishida nodded, "I see. And they are in your custody?" The Destroyer gave a nod, which made him frown, "Interesting."
Looking at him, Fubuki frowned, "Yes, I am here to make sure that the children involved are not going to be... an issue. There were extenuating circumstances in their case for which forgiveness would be something that they could be given."
His full attention on her, the older man frowned, "Forgiveness for such things do not come easy, Fubuki-San. You must understand that... interruptions such as they caused can be problematic."
Fubuki tilted her head some in acknowledgment, "Hai, and that is understandable. But before I go any further, Ishida-San... what do you know of magic? And not shipgirls or Abyssals."
At the side, both of them could hear a young man mumble to himself, "Magic...?"
Glancing at him, Ishida smiled a bit before gesturing at the young man who blanched a bit as he realized he had spoken aloud, "You must forgive my grandson, I have not told him everything as of yet."
Lightly chuckling, Fubuki shook her head, "Ah, do not worry about it. For I understand how hard such a thing is to be believed and such an reaction is understandable. And at least he did not call me crazy for bringing it up."
Acknowledging it, the older man let out a hum, "Now, as to magic? I know of the wizards and witches, and of the Yokai. Being as we straddle both sides of the divide as it were with our business." Eyes narrowing slightly, he picked up another bite of food, "I take it that such was part of the issue?"
There was a frown on Fubuki's face as she nodded, "Hai. As it turned out, the ones who stole were all very young Yokai, children really. The one in my case being a Kitsune, but as I said there are extenuating circumstances." Pulling out a tablet, she typed in the password and pushed it forward, "One of my crew had a camera and we arrived early enough to catch quite a bit."
With a glance at her, Ishida began to play the video. Not commenting, he continued to eat as he watched it. As he did so, his eyes narrowed some and he shot a glance at one of the other men there, who gave a shake of his head with a frown of his own. Once it was done, he played it again, watching closer. Then, Ishida handed her back the tablet, "Interesting."
Accepting the tablet back, Fubuki pushed forward two memory sticks, "In these are a copy of the video and of the statements made by the children regarding what they were forced to do. Now, the wizard who was behind this, I should note, was not of yours. Rather, from what they got out of him while I was there, he was pretending to be such. Because then, if one of the children were caught, it would be harder for someone to pin on him as they would think that perhaps it was you or someone akin to you."
It said something that the old man's only real sign of his thoughts was how one of the muscles in his jaw worked. Eventually, he nodded, "I see, it is obvious that there are, as you said, extenuating circumstances here, I agree. Though there were some damages."
Rather than say anything, Fubuki reached into her purse and pulled out a small stack of bills, followed by a second. Both of which she pushed forward, "Yes, but this should cover the cost of such." An thick envelope joined them, "And they deeply apologized for any harm that they did."
Taking the money, Ishida noted that they were in American bills and nodded to himself, "Yes, that very likely covers that issue." Handing them off to one of the other men, who bowed and left, he turned back to Fubuki before taking the envelope and reading what was on the papers, which were written apologies. Something that caused him to smile lightly before nodding, "I believe that for the children we can put it up to bad choices made in the folly of youth. Ones that they have learned from, correct?"
A thin smile on her face, Fubuki nodded, "Hai, and I am glad that you accept their deepest apologies, Ishida-San. All they, and we, could hope for is for it to not be held against them. Especially as some may go on to serve our nation on the seas."
Eyebrow raising, Ishida realized what was unsaid, 'Natural Borns.' Instead of saying it, he simply tilted his head slightly before clearing his throat, "Now, while they are forgiven, this one behind the problems..."
Her smile becoming cold, Fubuki chuckled, "Yes, him I am not asking anything for." Reaching into her pocket, she pulled out a picture and slid it across the table. Ishida took it and hummed as she continued, "Now then, his name..." Both of them continued talking for some time until the meal was finished. Once it was, Fubuki bowed deeply, which was returned, "I thank you again for taking time out of your day, Ishida-San for such an issue. And I am quite happy that we can put this behind us."
Slightly smiling, Ishida chuckled, "It is of no trouble, Fubuki-San. And if needed, we would be willing to help you with any issues regarding the children involved." Seeing the slight surprise, he gestured at the picture, "This... issue, is one that should never have happened. Thus, we owe them a little something."
All Fubuki did was nod and bow again, "Thank you, and perhaps I will ask for help."
With that, she left the room, following one of the staff members after paying the bill. For several minutes, the room was quiet before Ishida spoke softly, "Minato, my grandson... your friend from school, Hiroki-Kun, he is good with computers, yes?"
Bowing, his grandson nodded, "Hai, he is. While he is not involved with us in that way, he has helped before when I have had computer issues. Though nothing... sensitive."
Just nodding, Ishida handed him the photograph and memory sticks, "Have him make as many copies as he can. Money is of no object and I shall consider it a favor he has done us as I know he has had trouble. While he may not be one of us, and I will not involve him more than needed, he has done well by you as a friend. And for that, he has my thanks." Glancing at the photograph, his eyes narrowed, "Because for some things, there is no forgiveness..."