Chapter 29: Talks and Meetings
'Even if the war's outcome had not caused drastic changes in the political system of Wizarding Britain, Dumbledore's ultimatum would have had far-reaching consequences. The Chief Warlock forcing his will on the Ministry was not something the old system was capable of handling. Although the opinion that that this move put Dumbledore on the same level as the Dark Lord, a wizard of great personal power trying to unilaterally make decisions for Wizarding Britain, was thought provocative and inflammatory by many wizards and witches at the time, it is not without merit.
However, those consequences were, for better or worse, long-term concerns. More important for the war were the reactions of the Ministry staff. After months of hearing about the threat of the Muggleborn Resistance, it was no surprise that even among those Ministry employees not affiliated with the Dark Lord's forces, there were many who reacted with fear to the information that Minister Fudge was planning to pardon them. The recent attacks by muggleborns on random purebloods in Diagon Alley and Hogsmeade further reinforced those fears.'
- Excerpt from 'Wizarding Britain in the 20th Century' by Albert Runcorn
*****
Hogwarts, January 12th, 1997
When Ron Weasley saw Harry step out of Dumbledore's fireplace, saw his friend's smile, he felt the familiar feeling of jealousy fill him. That wasn't the face of a boy who had struck out on his date. They had kissed, that much was certain. And Ron didn't like it.
Ron knew it was selfish, and wrong - no matter what the Headmaster had told him earlier, he shouldn't be having thoughts like that - but a part of him had hoped that Harry would have a bad date. Ron wasn't as rich, as famous, or as talented as Harry, nor as important. But he had been able to show Hermione a good time, as Bill called it. Made her smile, and laugh, and hopefully forget the war for a bit.
If Harry had managed to do the same, then there was no way Hermione would pick Ron. He forced himself to smile as he stood up. "We'll have to finish this match another time, Headmaster," he said, nodding at the chessboard.
"I might as well concede right now," the old wizard said, smiling. "I doubt the outcome would differ from that of our previous two matches."
"Well…" Ron wasn't about to lie. The Headmaster was a decent player, enough to be a challenge, but not good enough to beat him. "Maybe."
"You've been playing chess?" Harry asked. Ron's friend was looking surprised. They hadn't played much chess lately, Ron realised. Harry didn't like the game as much as Ron did, and he wasn't exactly a challenge either, so Ron had to handicap himself a lot to have an even match.
"We have indeed. Your friend has proven to be the better player. Probably the best currently at Hogwarts," Dumbledore said.
"Too bad war's not a chess game," Ron said. There were too many random elements, too many variables. Chess was easy, too.
"Maybe." Dumbledore inclined his head.
Ron was tempted to ask what he meant, but it was getting late. They needed to return to their dorms - they had more training on Sunday, and Moody wouldn't let them sleep in. The thought of what the Auror would do to them if they overslept made Ron wince.
The Headmaster waved his hand. "Off to bed now, you two."
"Good night, Headmaster," the two chorused.
The trip back to their dorms was awkward, in Ron's opinion. He wanted to know what Harry and Hermione had done on their date, but at the same time, he wanted to remain ignorant, wanted to keep hoping that things would not go as expected. He was being selfish, and stupid. Harry would need all the support and love he could get for his confrontation with Voldemort. If he had his heart broken by Hermione, that would only help the Dark Lord. Harry hadn't that many friends either, and if Ron and Hermione were going out, that meant they'd spend less time with Harry. Another bad thing. Hermione had not much time to spare in the first place to be with them, and if that was reduced further… Ron shook his head. Everything told him that he should step back. Let Harry and Hermione be happy together. Be the bigger man, make the sacrifice for Britain, for everyone who was fighting Voldemort.
But, curse it! Ron didn't want to lose Hermione! If she picked Harry, which she likely would, then that was fine. Or would be fine. Ron'd be hurt, but he'd get over it. He had a lot of experience with handling disappointment. But to give up, give her up, to make the decision for her, to lie to her… He clenched his teeth together. No, he wouldn't do that.
It was stupid, and selfish, and a lot of other things, but he loved her. And until she told him she was choosing Harry, he'd keep hoping she'd choose him.
*****
London, East End, January 12th, 1997
When her alarm clock - mechanical, of course - rang, Hermione Granger didn't want to get up. She forced herself out of her bed anyway. She hadn't ever shirked from doing what was needed, and she'd not start on this Sunday morning. She wasn't looking forward to it, though. She didn't want to hurt Harry, and yet she would. Would he hate her for choosing Ron? Would he hate Ron?
She hoped, prayed that he wouldn't. But she couldn't be certain. Jealousy was a terrible thing; she knew that herself. And Harry was under a lot of pressure - he had to face and defeat Voldemort, according to the Headmaster. And, as much as Hermione hated to admit it, she agreed with that - the Dark Lord had tried several times before to kill the Boy-Who-Lived. Even if the prophecy were wrong, Harry would be fighting him sooner or later.
For a moment, she considered not telling the boys. Keep things going as they were, at least until the war was over. They wouldn't have much time for dating anyway, with all of them training hard, and fighting. And her decision wouldn't cause additional trouble and grief for Harry in the middle of the war.
She wouldn't do it, though. Couldn't - she didn't wear her heart on her sleeve like others, but she wasn't a good enough actress to fool her best friends. They'd know, or, worse, they'd suspect. And they'd doubt her, and themselves. And once she came clean, they'd know she had strung Harry along. None of them deserved that.
She had to tell them, and quickly. In person though, not over the mirror. They deserved that as well. But how and where could she tell them? They would need some privacy for that. And afterwards, Harry would want to leave, probably go to Sirius. The Resistance had safe houses, but those were not meant to be revealed to others, and certainly were not meant to be used for such things.
She made a mental note to check if anyone was using the reserve safe houses to meet with a lover - that was the kind of careless stupidity that could ruin them.
And Grimmauld Place was still hosting a dozen French wizards and witches - and four Veela, she added - as well as several Order members. She couldn't visit there without endangering everyone. And renting a hotel room… no, that would be sending the wrong kind of message.
Maybe a café. Or a park. A bit cliché, but they would not feel confined. There would be more room for all of them. Privacy spells would keep others from listening in, of course. She pulled out a map of London, to pick a suitable park, when she heard someone knock on her door.
"Hermione? Are you still in bed?"
That was Sally-Anne. Hermione glanced at her clock. She had spent that much time thinking this through? Shaking her head, she said out loud: "I'm up, I'll be down in a few minutes."
"We'll be waiting."
Technically, training was optional on a Sunday, but usually, most members of the Resistance did train anyway, although not as long as on the other days. And Hermione was usually among the first to be ready. She frowned at her lapse while she slipped into a track suit.
When she entered the living room a few minutes later, she was greeted by wide grins and smiles.
"What?" Hermione said, resisting the urge to cross her arms. That would look too defensive.
"You've overslept. Long night?" Sally-Anne's beaming, teasing expression left no doubt what she imagined Hermione had done last night.
She had to nip that in the bud. "No," she said, shaking her head. "I was just pondering a few things this morning."
"Oh."
Her friend was still smiling, so Hermione added: "Unpleasant things."
"Oh." The other witch looked crestfallen. "I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault," Hermione said. "It's not the fault of anyone here. Just a few things I have to take care of." And a heart to break. "Let's go do our laps to warm up."
Outside, jogging at a steady pace, she let her thoughts wander again. She told herself that Harry would get over her. Would find someone else. Someone prettier. Someone who'd suit him better. Someone he would be happy with.
She just hoped he would not fall for a girl who just wanted to be the girlfriend of the Boy-Who-Lived, and had no idea what being Harry's friend meant. If only she was still at Hogwarts, so she cold keep an eye on him. She'd have to trust Ron with that, then. And maybe tell Sirius.
Damn this war!
*****
London, January 12th, 1997
Brenda Brocktuckle woke up early, even though she had the day off - the first Sunday in weeks. And, of course, she had the day off at a time when she'd rather be at work, where everyone was trying to find out what their co-workers were thinking about Dumbledore's ultimatum. And what their co-workers were about to do about it.
She could go to work, of course. Claim she was busy with her case, if anyone asked her. Not that anyone would - she was still a pariah as far as most Aurors were concerned. But if she was there, then she could keep an eye on things. Find out what was going on.
And she might have an excuse not to meet with Parkinson's 'friends', as he called them. Death Eaters, or sympathisers. Up until a while ago, she hadn't cared about the difference, but now she was hoping there wouldn't be any actual Death Eaters. It wasn't illegal to have sympathies for the Dark Lord's goals. With the Minister about to follow Dumbledore, as rumours claimed, the Dark Lord was the only one doing anything about the Resistance, after all.
But to actually meet with Death Eaters… that was something else. But, she added to herself, maybe not illegal. Not anymore, when people were talking about pardoning mass-murderers. Had people forgotten how many people the mudbloods had killed? Why wasn't anyone proposing a pardon for the Death Eaters?
Because Dumbledore was against it, of course. The Chief Warlock wanted the Dark Lord dead, and he didn't care if he had to work with murderous mudbloods to achieve it. Or had to betray all the Aurors who had been killed in the line of duty.
Brenda cared. It was not right to let the murderers of her partners go free. That Bones would allow this… She shook her head. She wouldn't have expected that. The older witch had always stood up for the Corps. Had been one of them. But now? It seemed she was just another politician, going with the flow.
She sighed and got up, heading to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. Parkinson would turn up as soon as the tea was ready, as usual - the wizard had an uncanny talent for avoiding preparing breakfast himself. Brenda didn't really mind - she doubted that a breakfast prepared by him would be that tasty, due to him lacking any practice in the kitchen. Doubly so since this was a muggle kitchen, with all the useless muggle things cluttering up the place. Not even the oven worked right - they had to use a portable wizarding one.
As expected, the Auror entered the kitchen right before the tea was ready. "Good morning."
"Morning," Brenda said, levitating the tea kettle over to the table.
He grabbed it and filled his own cup, then hers. While he buttered his toast, he pointed at the Daily Prophet on the table, with a picture of Dumbledore on the front page. "Looks like the Prophet's owners have taken a side."
Anyone could have told that by the headline, and slanted article. "Probably blackmail," Brenda said. "He's bound to know everything about everyone important."
"Oh, yes. He's showing his true colours." Parkinson grinned. "Do you ever wonder how much he did behind the scenes? What he was doing until he was forced out in the open?"
"He's a politician," Brenda said. "He was making deals for decades."
"I meant in the war." Parkinson bit into his toast. "This war."
"What do you mean?"
"I was wondering why those mudbloods are so successful. They are ignorant scum, they barely received their N.E.W.T.s, but they managed to kill so many purebloods…" He trailed off, looking at her.
"We don't know all the members of the Resistance," Brenda said. "There could be older ones. Former Aurors." Traitors.
"There could be," Parkinson conceded, "but even they wouldn't have access to as much information, classified information, in the Ministry as the Chief Warlock."
Brenda gasped. "You mean…"
"Yes." He nodded. "I suspect Dumbledore was working with the mudbloods - or rather, that the mudbloods were working for him. He made the plans, and they executed them. None of Dumbledore's allies were at Malfoy Manor. And most of the Aurors killed by them in that ambush were good purebloods."
Brenda hissed. It made sense. If Dumbledore was a traitor, had been a traitor from the start...
"He's been pushing for a war ever since the Dark Lord returned. He didn't care at all for a peaceful solution. And when he was having no success even after a year, suddenly the mudbloods go underground, and dozens of purebloods whose only crime was being proud of their heritage were murdered, and he had his war."
"Against the mudbloods, not against the Dark Lord."
"Until the riots happened. Awfully convenient again, weren't they?" Parkinson grinned cynically. "Push everyone, see who breaks… maybe help things along a bit. A spell here and there, and there's a nice riot. As if the Dark Lord, after asking for peace for a year, would suddenly act like this, when everyone had just seen how dangerous the mudbloods are!"
"Merlin's arse!" Brenda wasn't quite convinced, but it made sense. It made so much cursed sense.
Parkinson nodded.
Suddenly, meeting the wizard's friends didn't seem like treason anymore. Not if the Chief Warlock, and with him, the Minister, had done far, far worse.
*****
Hogwarts, January 12th, 1997
When he heard the communication mirror's call right before lunch, Harry Potter feared the worst. An unscheduled call, in war? That meant bad news. Especially if it was Hermione's mirror, and not Sirius's. His godfather was more likely to spontaneously call him, and Harry had just spent the last evening with Hermione.
"Ron!"
His friend looked up from the Daily Prophet's Quidditch section.
"It's Hermione's mirror."
Harry saw his friend jerk - he'd think the same as Harry. Bad news. Best to assume the worst, and prepare accordingly, he had heard Moody say often during their training.
Ron quickly came over and sat down on Harry's bed. A privacy spell later, behind the curtains, they stuck her heads together and Harry touched the mirror.
Hermione's face appeared, and he was relieved. Whatever had happened, she was alive. And she didn't look hurt. She was nervous, though.
"Hermione!" Ron all but yelled.
The witch winced. "Good morning." Harry and Ron barely managed to say their own greetings before the girl continued. "I hate to do this, to disrupt your schedule, but… I have to meet you. Today."
"What happened?" Harry asked. Next to him, Ron, audibly claused his mouth - he had been about to ask the same, Harry thought.
"I can't say it on the mirror. We have to meet. The café we met last evening, at… is four alright?"
"Yes," Ron said.
Harry nodded. They had a lesson scheduled, but Dumbledore would understand.
"Good. I'll see you soon then. Again, I'm sorry for disrupting your schedule."
The mirror went dark so quickly, Harry wasn't certain she had heard their goodbyes. For a moment he stared at his and Ron's reflection, then he sighed and stashed the mirror. "That was… weird." And disturbing.
His friend nodded. "Yes." He chuckled. "That's so her, apologising for 'disrupting our schedule'."
Harry snorted. "Yes." He wasn't really amused, though. He wondered what their friend wanted to tell them that she couldn't tell them through the mirror. Suddenly he hissed. There was one thing people never told each other on the phone. "She's not pregnant, is she?" He glanced at Ron.
His friend gaped at him. "What? How?"
"Do you want me to explain how it works?" Harry said.
"Merlin's balls, no!" Ron stared at him. "I meant… how could she be pregnant? Did you?"
"No, no." Harry said. Apparently, his friend hadn't had sex either. "Sorry."
Ron nodded. "But still… what could she want to tell us?"
Harry could think of one thing. And judging by the face Ron made, his friend had just had the same thought.
"Shite."
*****
"Do you think she's made her choice?"
On the way to the Headmaster's office, Harry had to fight not to glare at his best friend. He didn't really want to think, much less talk about it. Yet he nodded. "Probably." What else would have caused her to act so… nervous?
"I think so too," Ron said.
Neither Ron nor Harry asked the next, the logical question, out loud, though Harry certainly was asking himself. Who had she chosen? Him, or Ron? Or, maybe… "You don't think she's breaking up with both of us?"
"What?" Ron turned his head to stare at him. "Why would she be doing this, right after the dates?"
Because she's found someone else, someone better? Harry thought. No, she wouldn't do that. "Maybe she thinks we all need to focus on the war."
Ron snorted. "That could be it."
"You don't think so, though." Harry knew his best friend.
"No, I don't." Ron shook his head, his wand covering the entrance to a side-corridor they were passing. "Or she'd have acted differently two days ago."
Harry was tempted to ask Ron how she had acted, but didn't. This still could be something else. Maybe she wanted to tell them that she couldn't go on dates for a month or two, because of the war. Dumbledore's ultimatum had made waves, and Harry knew that Sirius's Order cell had been preparing for a battle - in the Ministry - for some time now. Just in case, his godfather had said. When Moody had found out that they had been told, he had shouted about operational security.
Thinking of Sirius made him think of his godfather's favourite solution to solve their love triangle. "You don't think she'll ask for a threesome, do you?"
"What?" Ron stared at him, again. "A threesome?"
Harry couldn't help it - the opening was just too good, and he needed some levity. "It's when a witch has sex with two wizards at the same time."
"I know what a threesome is!" Ron growled. "But Hermione wouldn't go for that."
"Why not?" Harry glanced at Ron. Sirius had told him once that smart witches were often 'kinky', or 'willing to experiment'. Harry could have done without hearing what James had told his best friend about Harry's mother, though. "Do you think she's too…" He searched for the right word. "... too proper for that?"
"No. But if she wanted to do something like that, she'd have dragged us both off to her bedroom long ago. She's not one to hesitate if she thinks she has found the solution to a problem." Ron grinned, though it looked a bit forced to Harry.
He nodded. He didn't think sharing Hermione would work, anyway. It was bad enough to wonder what she was doing with Ron on their date, to know what they were doing, and wondering if she liked him better, and was only with him out of pity, would be worse. And having sex all three of them together… no. No.
They reached the Headmaster's office, and went straight up - both had the password these days, for emergencies. And this certainly qualified, in Harry's opinion. Besides, the Headmaster had told them his door would always be open if they wanted to talk. And that was the case here as well. They just wanted to talk with Hermione.
The Headmaster was in his office, and raised his eyebrows when he saw them enter. "I would have expected you to be at lunch at this time. What happened?"
"Hermione called. She needs to talk to us," Harry said.
"Right now," Ron added.
Dumbledore pushed his glasses a bit further up his nose with one finger, and slowly nodded. "I see. I would think this could be called a family emergency then? Though I hope that she is not in the family way."
"She isn't!" Ron quickly said.
Harry nodded. "We haven't…" he trailed off. Dumbledore wasn't the last wizard he wanted to talk about this with, but that didn't mean Harry wanted to go into details in the first place.
Dumbledore smiled. "Please be cautious, though. While it's not likely that it is a trap, it is not impossible. Have you informed Sirius?"
"No, we haven't. We came straight here, after we talked to her." Harry was wondering why the Headmaster said this. He hadn't mentioned a possible trap when they had gone on dates. He suddenly wondered if the Headmaster knew what Hermione was about to tell them. And if Dumbledore thought that they'd need Sirius. Or that Harry'd need him. Then he forced himself to relax. Sirius was one of the few who knew about their relationship and meetings with Hermione. Of course he'd be the one to inform.
"Do you mind if I do tell him? Just as a precaution."
"No, of course not," Harry said. He didn't really want his godfather around for this talk, but they were at war.
"Good. You might also wish to eat something. An empty stomach is not a good companion for a serious talk." Dumbledore smiled, and a few seconds later, two plates appeared on his desk, loaded with food. "Tuck in, please, while I inform your godfather."
Harry didn't feel hungry, but he forced himself to eat something. Ron's appetite wasn't affected by their mutual nervousness, of course. Or Ron wasn't that nervous - Harry couldn't tell.
He was jealous, though. And hoped that he'd not have another, much bigger reason to be jealous of his friend in a few hours.
*****
London, No. 12 Grimmauld Place, January 12th, 1997
"An urgent meeting with Hermione? And you can't talk about it on the mirror? Merlin, Harry! You didn't…"
"She's not pregnant!" Harry Potter glared at his godfather.
"You asked the same, Harry," Ron said.
"Oh!" Sirius sat up straighter in his seat facing the boys' couch. "So, since you came to the same conclusion, what did you do on your date?"
"She's not pregnant. We didn't do it, and if we had done it, she wouldn't know if she's pregnant yet."
"Are you certain? Muggles have some really good tests for that," Sirius said. "Lily told me so. It was why she wanted to visit a muggle healer during her pregnancy as well."
"Yes. They can't tell that early if you're pregnant." Harry was certain that Sirius was misremembering. His godfather's memories had been affected by his torture in Azkaban, and many of his tales were probably more fantasy than reality. He didn't want to go into a discussion about muggle medicine and pregnancies right now, though. He just wanted to head over to the café where they would be meeting Hermione. They would be a few hours early, but it was better than discussing their relationship with Sirius.
"Well, if you are certain…" Sirius winced under Harry's glare, then said: "I'll be in the area, in disguise, to keep an eye on you. And I want you to take a portkey. Just in case."
"You know that if Hermione spots a black shaggy dog around the café, she'll probably neuter it, right?" Harry narrowed his eyes.
"Merlin's balls!" Sirius winced. "I'll not be eavesdropping. But things are, as the Headmaster put it, 'delicate' right now. The Ministry's caught in an internal struggle, with all the Death Eater spies working to sabotage the Minister, and the muggleborns might not be happy about allying with the Ministry either."
"What? Do you think the resistance is planning to ambush us?" Ron sounded as shocked as Harry felt.
"No, not really. But all it takes is one jealous idiot to ruin things." Sirius shook his head. "If one muggleborn is in love with Hermione, he might do something stupid."
Harry wasn't quite certain if Sirius was talking about a Resistance member when he was warning them of jealous idiots. He nodded. "But if Hermione takes offense, we'll blame all on you."
He grinned when he saw Sirius's expression at hearing that.
*****
London, Soho, January 12th, 1997
Ron Weasley studied the menu of the café for the third time, just to have something to do while he and Harry were waiting. They were early. Two hours early, to be exact. They'd have been even earlier if Sirius hadn't insisted that the two visit Grimmauld Place first. Ron thought the man had been exaggerating the danger from some jealous muggleborn, though. He probably just wanted to make sure Ron wouldn't make a scene, he added, with a sinking feeling, if she picked Harry. He knew that Sirius hadn't forgotten how much of a jealous git Ron had been in their fourth year, to both Harry and Hermione. Neither had Ron.
He took a deep breath. If Hermione choose Harry, then he'd not act like that. He'd wish the two of them well, and… probably go and be miserable in private. Maybe nab a bottle of … no, not firewhiskey. Beer though. Real beer. Something to numb himself. That was something Bill couldn't help him with, Ron knew - his oldest brother had never had to deal with rejection. He was just too charming. Even Fleur, the most beautiful woman Ron had ever seen, had fallen for Bill.
Ron, though, had made his first date mad with his attitude, and hadn't had much success with the witches since. At least, he thought, his dates hadn't turned out to be disguised Death Eaters trying to kill him. He had one over the twins, still. And, he added, at least one witch had found him cute, Lavender. So, even if Hermione chose Harry, he'd not be alone for the rest of his life.
That was what he really feared. Losing his friends. Both of them. If he acted like a jealous idiot, he'd lose them for certain. They weren't in fourth year anymore, they were in the middle of a war. He couldn't let his friends down because he was feeling sorry for himself. He wouldn't.
He glancd at Harry. His best friend was folding paper napkins into… whatever they were supposed to be. They hadn't talked since they had arrived. Ron had been too absorbed with himself, he thought. He cleared his throat. "Harry?"
His friend looked up, and his latest creation acquired a rip. "Yes?"
"I just wanted to say: If she picks you, I'll accept it. Just, make her happy, mate." Damn, Ron thought, that sounded stupid. But he wasn't about to say that he'd not be jealous, since that would be a lie. He would be. Very jealous. "I don't want this, however it goes, to ruin our friendship." He chuckled, without humour. "You know I have been a right prick about much less in the past, but… I grew up." At least he hoped he had.
"Thanks." Harry took a deep breath. "I feel the same. If she picks you." He started to rip the napkin into tiny pieces. "I don't want this to change our friendship."
It would change, of course. But Ron knew what his friend meant. He just hoped they would manage.
He glanced outside. It had started to rain. Just the weather for this meeting, he thought.
*****
An hour early was a bit much even for herself, Hermione Granger thought as she walked towards the café. But she couldn't help it - There hadn't been anything urgent to focus on back at headquarters, and she had been too worked up to focus on other things. A walk had seemed the best way to calm down, and it would be good exercise as well.
But she had underestimated the British weather. The sudden rain had forced her to either seek shelter somewhere, return to headquarters, or go to the café earlier than planned. She had decided to wait in the café. There would be newspapers to read, to pass the time until the boys arrived. She felt nervous just thinking of the coming confrontation, and took a deep breath to steady herself. An hour reading would calm her down.
Of course, that plan didn't survive for long either - as soon as she entered the café, she saw her two friends sitting at a table. For a moment she wondered if she had forgotten the time, or had misremembered when they were supposed to meet. But no, it was barely three in the afternoon. Had they really arrived so early? She was still wondering when Harry spotted her and waved.
She waved back and walked over to them, hoping she didn't look as nervous as she felt.
*****
Their friend was nervous, Ron Weasley could tell with a glance. She tried to hide it, but she was taking far longer than usual to pick her order. And she was twisting a stray lock of her hair around her finger, although she did that often. He exchanged a glance with Harry while she - finally - talked with the waitress. His friend had noticed as well.
They wouldn't tell her, or pressure her, of course. They'd wait patiently. Well, nervously, actually, until Hermione was ready to tell them. "I hope that by being early we didn't disrupt your schedule," he said when the waitress had left, and grinned at her.
She shook her head. "No, of course not. I was early myself. Although two hours early… I think I only did that once, when a new library opened up in the neighborhood, and I wanted to get the first pick of its books."
Ron chuckled, and she frowned at him.
"I was ten," she said, and he remembered her in their first year, looking disapprovingly at him for making fun of her love of books. It was such a cute image, he broke out in a wide smile. She frowned even more, then she shook her head, smiling.
For a moment, everything was perfect. Then she grew serious. "You're probably wondering why I need to talk to you. In person, that is."
"Yes." Harry's voice sounded quite tense. As tense as Ron himself felt, right then.
Hermione took a deep breath. "I've made my decision." She looked from Ron to Harry and back.
Ron held his breath. He knew what was coming, and yet he couldn't help holding out hope. But he wouldn't ruin this for them. He wouldn't act like a jealous idiot. He would…
"It's you, Ron. I'm sorry, Harry."
Ron blinked. Him? Hermione wanted him? Not Harry? She was explaining something, but he wasn't listening. He had been preparing himself for the usual disappointment, trying to be happy for her, and now, she wanted him. Ron Weasley. He felt elated. Happy. He wanted to jump up and kiss Hermione.
Then he heard Harry speak. "I understand, Hermione."
And Ron felt bad and guilty for being happy.
*****
Harry Potter felt as if he had taken a Bludger to the gut. A Bludger thrown by his best friend. No, that was wrong - Hermione had made her choice. She had chosen Ron, not him. He should have expected that. Ron was funny, easy-going, and brave. Harry had had to ask his godfather how to treat a girl right on a date. And Ron had a future - Harry had a destined battle to the death with Voldemort. Of course she'd choose their friend over him.
"Harry?"
She had been talking to him, he realised. "Yes?"
"It's not your fault."
Of course she'd say that. He nodded anyway.
"I think you'll be happier with someone else, in the long run." She was biting her lower lip.
He nodded again. What long run? They were in the middle of a war, and he was to face the Voldemort himself. He doubted there was a long run for him. More like a long walk off a short cliff. "I need some fresh air." He stood up before any of his friends could say anything, and left the café.
Once outside he closed his eyes and sighed. The cold winter air didn't help; it made his eyes water. A big black dog approached him. Sirius. Harry should be angry that his godfather had been spying on them, but he could really use a sympathetic ear right now. He pointed to the closest park. "I'll be sitting down there."
Padfoot made a confused noise, but followed him into the park, before disappearing into the bushes. A minute later, Sirius joined him on the bench he had picked.
"We could go home. It would be more private," his godfather said.
Harry shook his head. "I don't feel like going home. And we can watch the café from here. Just in case there really was a reason for your presence." Other than being there for him to help with his rejection.
Sirius coughed. "Alright." After a pause, he said: "It's not the end of the world. Even if it feels like it right now."
"I really need to work on my poker face," Harry said. What good was Occlumency if people could read his face?
"Two boys sit down with the girl they love. One stands up and leaves after a while. The best poker face in the world wouldn't have helped you there." Sirius shrugged.
"Not that it matters anyway." Harry sighed. He had been rejected, as he should have expected.
He felt Sirius's arm wrap around his shoulders.
"As I said, it's not the end of the world. You might not think so right now, but it'll work out. You're still in school, after all, and teenage relationships rarely last that long." The older wizard chuckled. "I should know."
"My parents' relationship did," Harry said. His father had won the love of his mother, and they were happy together. Until Voldemort.
"Well… they were special."
"And I'm not." Harry stared at the ground.
"They didn't start dating until their last year. Lily rejected James's advances until then."
His father was rejected as well, then. Multiple times. But he won the witch in the end. Maybe…
"I know that look, Harry. James had the same look."
Harry set his jaw and glanced at his godfather. His father had succeeded.
Sirius sighed. "James didn't win Lily's heart by chasing her. Matter of fact, that made her dislike him."
"I wasn't about to chase her." She was with Ron, and Harry certainly didn't want her to hate him for not accepting her choice. Or Ron.
"Pining after her won't do much good either. There are other witches. You might find you can fall in love with someone else."
Harry didn't think so. Hermione was his best friend. There was no witch like her.
Once again, his face must have betrayed his thoughts, since Sirius said: "Didn't you have a crush on that Ravenclaw in fourth year?"
"That was just a crush." This, however, was love. He hadn't really known Cho. He hadn't even realised she was in a relationship already. Hermione, though, was his best friend. He knew her. He loved her.
"Look, Harry, trust me. You're still young. Things will change. People will change. You will change. Who knows where we are in a year from now? Maybe you'll meet a witch you'll fall head over heels for."
Harry snorted. Fat chance of that.
Sirius cleared his throat. "Anyway. Just because they are a couple doesn't mean they'll leave you out. James and Lily didn't, either. Leave me or the rest of their friends out, that is."
Harry really didn't want to think of Ron and Hermione as his parents. "It hurts to see them like this. And I'm certain they won't want me to ruin their time together."
"Don't be stupid, Harry! You're their best friend! They don't want you to leave them. Well, not unless you're following them around when they're on a date. Or stumble on them when they're snogging."
"That sounds like you're speaking from personal experience."
Sirius coughed. "That's not relevant. Just know that life goes on, and things will work out."
Coming from a man that had spent a decade as an innocent in Azkaban, that was a remarkably positive outlook, Harry thought. Of course, said man was currently involved with at least one Veela, according to the rumours he had heard. Still, Harry had to admit that losing the witch he loved to his best friend wasn't the worst that could happen.
Facing the Dark Lord in his mind certainly was worse.
*****
"That went… about as I should have expected," Hermione Granger said when Harry left. She hadn't found the words to make Harry understand that it wasn't his fault. It was nobody's fault but her own, for letting this happen. If she had made a decision earlier… she bit her lower lip.
"Poor Harry."
She looked at Ron. In hindsight, she shouldn't have told them at the same time. It made the whole situation very awkward. Ron looked like he wasn't certain if he was happy or sad. If she had arranged for different meetings… First Ron, then Harry… or would that have let them know her decision already? Done was done, she told herself.
"I know how he is feeling," Ron said.
"You do?" Had he been rejected before? And by whom? Padma, maybe?
"I've been imagining you rejecting me for hours." Ron smiled, although rather sadly.
She hadn't expected that. He had been so confident and happy during their dates. "You thought I'd choose Harry?"
"Well… yes."
She could almost hear the unsaid 'as usual' following that. "Well, I didn't," she said. "I love you." She loved Harry too.
He smiled at that, and gripped her hand.
But she saw him glance at the door, through which Harry had left. "Do you want to go after him?" She didn't want him to go, but she didn't want Harry to be alone right now either.
He shook his head. "Sirius will take care of him."
"Ah." So, Harry's godfather was watching.
"He insisted on coming. 'Just in case', he said."
Hermione wondered if Sirius had expected her decision. It didn't matter, she decided. Harry was with his family now. She could relax. She squeezed Ron's hand, encouragingly. She still felt guilty. Harry's expression, when she had told him, them… it had hurt her. Not as much as it had hurt him, though.
"What now?" Ron asked.
"When do you have to go back to Hogwarts?"
"I'm not certain. We just told Dumbledore we had to leave." He grinned. "He was very understanding."
Hermione wondered if the Headmaster had known about this. Or expected. She had thought leaving Hogwarts would mean less interest in her love life, not more. "I think being back for lunch would be reasonable then." She nodded. "Enough time for a date." And for Harry to adjust.
Ron looked surprised, but pleased. Then worried. "I haven't exactly made plans for a date."
Hermione smiled. "I'm certain we can improvise." She signalled the waitress, then took his hand.
She was still feeling guilty for hurting Harry. But she was feeling happy for being with Ron.
*****
Cheshire, Britain, Outskirts of Chester, January 12th, 1997
If not for the fact that she was currently living in a muggle flat herself, Brenda Brocktuckle would have thought it ironic to meet Parkinson's 'friends' in a muggle town. As it was, the fact that the safest place to have such a meeting was among the muggles was a telling testimony of the threat Wizarding Britain was facing.
She was about to meet Death Eaters or sympathisers. Wizards and witches willing to betray the Ministry to the Dark Lord. She had doubts, still. The Dark Lord had kidnapped and killed Augusta Longbottom. And he had murdered the guards of Azkaban. He had struck against families, and what he had done in the last war… But she didn't have a choice. It was Dumbledore, working with mudbloods for mudbloods, or the Dark Lord. As much as she hated to admit it, the Ministry couldn't stand against either of those two, if left alone.
The mudbloods had murdered dozens of purebloods whose only fault had been to attend a ball. Without warning, without remorse. The Dark Lord had at least tried to achieve his goals in a peaceful manner. And he'd not kill her for doing her duty - she had never fought his people, after all.
"They blocked Apparition?" She asked, examining the house as she walked up to it.
"Yes," Parkinson, walking next to her, said.
"I assume they have another way out, in case the house gets attacked." Brenda wasn't about to get killed if the purebloods she was meeting were that stupid.
"Yes." Parkinson hesitated, but he'd have to know she'd not let this go. "The house has an old escape tunnel." He grinned. "Not that the mudbloods can find it, anyway."
"All it takes is one traitor," Brenda said. "And the Ministry's not short of those." There would be a number who were now, faced with Dumbledore taking over the Ministry, considering betraying their allies to cut a deal with the Chief Warlock. They had before, in the last war, after all.
"True. But those we are about to meet we can trust." Parkinson grinned.
Brenda forced herself to smile. She knew what that meant. No mere sympathisers, but marked Death Eaters. Wizards and witches sworn to the Dark Lord. "Even among those, there have been traitors," she said, partially just to tweak Parkinson's nose. The wizard was far too smug.
"Have there?" Parkinson smiled.
She narrowed her eyes at him. "Snape. Karkaroff."
"Both are still alive," her fellow Auror said. "Which means they have earned the Dark Lord's forgiveness."
"They still betrayed him." And both were hiding behind some of the strongest wards known to wizards - those of Hogwarts and Durmstrang.
"Only after his death."
Brenda had heard the claim that the Dark Lord had returned from death often, but she remained sceptical. There hadn't been a body in 1981. The Dark Lord could have fled, grievously wounded and cursed, and taken a decade to heal up. She didn't say that, though - that would have been foolish.
They reached the door and Parkinson knocked. Brenda caught the curtains on the side moving a bit, and a moment later, the door was opened. "Come inside," a wizard said. Brenda recognised him - Garey, from the Portkey Office. He was in charge of handing out the portkeys the Aurors used.
Inside, the house had been expanded with Extension Charms. This was a regular meeting spot, then - or a wizard's home. Three more people were sitting around a table. Barnaby Bulstrode, Hit-Wizard, and Gerald Avery, another Auror. The third she didn't know.
"Tristan Nott," Parkinson explained. "He's working for the Wizengamot." He was a member of a cadet line of the Nott family then, Brenda thought. Parkinson gestured at her. "This is Brenda Brocktuckle. I've told you about her."
"We've met," Bulstrode said. Avery just nodded. He had been with them in that fatal trap at the brewery.
"She's as concerned as we are about the recent developments in the Ministry." Parkinson sat down, and Brenda joined him. Garey brought tea and snacks. For a clandestine meeting, this was very civilised, Brenda thought.
"Well, of course." Avery scoffed. "If the mudbloods take over your head will roll."
Brenda nodded. She knew that. "Just for doing my duty."
"But are you ready to do what needs to be done?" The man stared at her.
They hadn't implicated themselves as Death Eaters yet, but Brenda already knew too much. Not that she planned to rat them out - not to a Ministry that was betraying herself, and all the Aurors who had died at the mudbloods' hands. "I've been hunting mudbloods since this war started. Whoever stands with them is a traitor, no matter what the Minister says."
"Dumbledore's mouthpiece!" Bulstrode said.
"Spineless traitor!" Garey added.
Nott didn't say anything, and Avery was still staring at her. Parkinson was silent as well, though seemed at ease, munching on a finger sandwich. She met his eyes. She had faced the mudbloods far too often to back down now.
After a while, Avery said: "We'll not be facing mudbloods in the Ministry."
"We're facing blood traitors," Brenda said. "Worse than mudbloods." She sneered. "I've been hunting criminals no matter their blood for a long time. And anyone siding with the Mudblood Resistance is a criminal. They killed so many of ours, and now they want to pardon them?"
Avery glanced to Nott, then to Parkinson, before nodding. "That's what we are planning to prevent. Not just us, of course. A great many more think like us."
"Other cells." Brenda knew how such things were organised.
"Yes. We each have our missions, and together we'll save the Ministry from the blood traitors."
As everyone nodded. Brenda glanced at Parkinson. The Auror was uncharacteristically silent. She wondered what he was thinking. And plotting.
*****
London, East End, January 12th, 1997
Hermione Granger was smiling when she arrived back at the Resistance's headquarters. She and Ron had passed a very nice afternoon. They had taken a stroll through London, talked, visited another café, gone sight-seeing, and kissed. A lot. Almost enough for her not to feel guilty about Harry anymore. Ron was a good kisser. A very good kisser, in her very limited experience. She sighed contentedly.
"So it was a good date then, hm?"
She noticed that Sally-Anne was standing in the door to the kitchen, grinning at her.
For a moment, Hermione was tempted to brush the witch off. Her love life was none of her business. But Sally-Anne was the closest female friend she had in the Resistance. The closest female friend she had, period. She deserved better. So she smiled. "Yes."
"Oh! Tell me everything!" Sally-Anne grabbed her hand. "How was it? And who did you meet?" she added, almost as an afterthought.
Hermione's smile slipped a bit. The witch sounded remarkably like Lavender and Parvati, right then. "I met Ron."
"Ron? Ron Weasley?" Sally-Anne looked very surprised. "You're dating him?"
"Yes." Hermione stared at her.
"Oh! I thought you were meeting a muggle boy. So, you were meeting him all along?"
Hermione didn't think it was a good idea to mention that she had been dating both her best friends until today. "We've gone on dates before, yes."
"Three dates this weekend? You've been busy!" Sally-Anne giggled.
"You've been out with Justin as often," Hermione pointed out. More often, actually, since those two had far more opportunities to go out. And they could simply spend time together whenever they wanted.
"Well, yes." Sally-Anne grinned. "But it's not the same if you do it."
Hermione was tempted to ask how that made sense, but another voice interrupted her.
"You're dating Weasley?"
Seamus was on the stairs.
She nodded. "Yes." Would he make an issue out of it, just because Ron was a pureblood? She didn't think Seamus had become that extreme, but… she had been fooled by Allan, hadn't she?
"I would have thought you'd go after Potter," the Irish wizard said.
She could have said that she had picked Ron. That Ron was the better kisser. That she loved both, but thought Ron would suit her more. But none of that was anyone's business but hers and her friends'. So she simply smiled. "Well, you're wrong."
"It's risky, dating him." Seamus was frowning. "He's still at Hogwarts."
"We're not meeting at Hogwarts. We're meeting in London. Muggle London."
"Can he even fit in there?" Seamus snorted. "He's a pureblood, after all."
"Who is?"
Once more Hermione was interrupted before she could answer. By Dean this time.
Seamus turned to his best friend. "Weasley. Hermione's dating him."
"What?" Dean was staring at her. "You and him?"
"Yes." She sounded sharper than she wanted, daring him to say anything more. What was their issue with her friends anyway?
He grumbled something she didn't catch, but which caused Seamus to snort, and went into the kitchen.
Sally-Anne tugged on her hand. "Come on, you have to tell me everything!"
As she let herself be dragged upstairs, Hermione mused that Sally-Anne's reaction was not quite as annoying as she had thought it would be. The girl seemed to be genuinely happy for her.
Unlike Seamus and Dean.
*****
Hogwarts, January 12th, 1997
"You're so happy that you're staring at nothing with a silly smile on your face, and Harry's gone to bed already. Hermione made her decision then."
Ginny's voice jerked Ron Weasley out of the memory of the parting kiss with Hermione. "What?" He glared at her, then glanced around. Had anyone in the common room heard her?
"I've cast privacy spells," his sister said. "So, did she?"
Denying it would have been stupid. "Yes. She told us today."
Ginny smiled and patted his arm. "I'm glad for you, Ron."
He stared at her.
She shrugged. "Hey, you're my brother."
"And that she didn't chose Harry is not important."
She had the grace to blush, smiling a bit, then sighed. "I've seen his expression. He's looking almost as bad as Neville did, right after… you know." When she noticed his expression, she said: "Not quite that bad, of course. At least he won't have to see you snog her in common room."
"I wouldn't do that to him," Ron said. That would be cruel. And rather indiscreet as well.
She sat down on the armrest of his seat. For a girl who had just heard that the boy she loved had been dumped, she looked sadder than Ron would have expected.
"What's wrong?"
"Harry is." She sighed. "This is not going according to plan."
"What? What plan?" What had his sister done?
"I thought that if Hermione chose you, Harry would be free to pick me. But he looks terrible." She sighed again. "He's really into her, right?"
"Yes." Of course he was, Ron thought. So was Ron himself.
"And if I offer to help him, everyone will think I'm making a move. Harry will think so as well." She pouted.
Ron wasn't certain that Harry was aware of his sister's interest in him. Others would be, of course. But that wasn't the point. "He doesn't need a girlfriend right now. He needs his friends." Like Ron and Hermione.
"I don't see you with him right now."
"We've talked already." Briefly, and not about the real issue.
"Doesn't seem to have helped."
"There's not much that can help him right now. He just needs time," Ron said.
"My brother, the expert on broken hearts?" She sounded sceptical.
"Sirius said so."
"Is he helping Harry?"
"Yes." Or trying to, at least. Ron wasn't privy to what Harry and Sirius had talked about.
"Well, that's something." She stood up. "Not much, but it's something."
"What will you do?" Ron asked. Ginny was not the most thoughtful girl he knew. Rash and easy to anger fit her more.
"Nothing."
"What?"
"If I push him, I'd probably make things worse for him."
"Not probably. Certainly."
"Well, yes." She didn't look happy about it, but didn't dispute it either. "So, I'll wait. Until he is ready."
"Ready?"
"For a new relationship, of course."
"Ah." Ron nodded. As far as plans went, that one was quite sensible. She must be growing up as well. "Good luck."
"Thanks." She smiled, then walked to her dorm. Not without glancing at the stairs leading to the boys' dorms, he noticed.
One potential mess avoided. Unless some other witch made a move on Harry.
Ron wouldn't like to be nearby if that happened. He sighed, then closed his eyes, and tried to remember Hermione. And her lips on his.
*****
Outside Stamford, Lincolnshire, Britain, January 13th, 1997
The Dark Lord Voldemort read the latest reports from his spies, frowning. Dumbledore's ties to the mudbloods had had less of an effect on the general population's view of the old man than Voldemort had hoped for. It wasn't surprising, he thought, after a glance at the headline of the Daily Prophet on his desk.
'Dumbledore promises to unite Britain against its real enemies'.
He snorted - this article lumped his Death Eaters together with the mudbloods attacking Hogsmeade. The irony would be amusing, if it wasn't sabotaging his own effort to accuse Dumbledore of being behind the Mudblood Resistance. His old enemy was milking the capture of those muggleborn attackers in Hogsmeade for all it was worth, and apparently, the pureblood population was eating it up, thinking he'd keep them save from everyone. That his Death Eaters had killed more purebloods than mudbloods didn't help Voldemort's cause, of course, even though everyone with an ounce of logic would see the reasons for that.
He shook his head. "Well played, Dumbledore."
At least the Ministry employees were not fooled - they knew the mudbloods would want revenge for their exile, and knew the Dark Lord was their only hope of saving their lives, or at least their positions. Recruitment among them was progressing at a fast pace, although that also opened the danger of traitors infiltrating his cells. It couldn't be helped, though - he needed as many followers as possible in case his attempt to foil Dumbledore's plans with political means failed, as it seemed they would.
He pondered mounting another attack on purebloods himself, disguised as the work of mudbloods, then dismissed the idea. It might just drive more of the sheep into Dumbledore's arms.
No, he had to face facts: With both Fudge and Bones in Dumbledore's pocket - and he wished he knew what leverage his old foe had on the Head of the DMLE - his own attempts to take over the Ministry through political influence could not succeed. He had to either take it by force, or get rid of the two.
Fortunately, he had a plan that would help with either goal. And the wizard in place to execute it.
*****