I met my grandfather for the first time when I was nine.
"Please, Father. He's so young. He's not ready."
I'll never forget how my mother froze when he had arrived: a tall, dour man, old and wrinkled with an elegant black cane. There wasn't a single crease in his pristine suit. His face was harsh. Cold. My mother seemed to flee from his very gaze.
"He's already too old by my count. You've coddled the boy enough."
Not once did my grandfather look at me as he spoke. His pitiless words were only directed at my mother.
"He has friends! He has school! He has a life! You can't just take him away from all of that!"
"He has nothing and you know it, girl! This worthless Vav life you cling to… it isn't possible now that he has manifested his Concept."
My mother had never mentioned my grandfather before that day. She had flinched whenever I had asked. As far as I had known, it had just been her and me in our little family.
"He can hold it back! He can live a normal life!"
"He can do no such thing! I will not allow it."
I remember the contempt in his eyes. I remember the disgust.
I remember my mother cowering.
"I have permitted your vaunted 'freedom,' girl. When you fled your duties, when you shamed us with your… dalliance… I did not seek you. I did not discipline you as I had ought. I permitted you to raise the boy because you had assured me he would be as worthless and inconsequential as his sire. I granted you all this out of my love for you."
I remember how my mother flinched. I remember the tears in her eyes.
"But you were mistaken. The boy is not worthless. Our bloodline has proven true, in spite of your feeble attempt to taint it. The boy has a duty, girl. I will not permit you to keep him from it. My generosity is not so limitless. He will serve, as you ought to have."
"Father…"
"The boy is coming with me. This is not up for debate. You will remain free to do as you wish. Have another worthless swine soil your womb if you so desire. I will not stop you."
For the first time, my grandfather turned to me. His eyes were dark, piercing. "Come, boy. You have shirked your duties long enough."
That was the last time I ever saw my mother. I'll never forget how she let me go without a fight.
My grandfather didn't waste a moment. Training began the moment he had me in the carriage.
"Your will is underdeveloped," my grandfather declared. "What has your mother taught you of the arcane? Of your Concept?"
"I…" I hesitated. I didn't know what he was talking about.
"Nothing at all, then. The foolish girl had raised you like a Vav, ignorant of the truth before your eyes." My grandfather's glare harshened. "Listen well, boy. I will not repeat myself. What I am teaching you even the most addled child should know. Your current ignorance is an affront to all decency."
I shrunk in place.
"There are three forms of magic in Creation, divided by origin and expression." He raised a finger from his cane. "The first is the magic of the World. It is a magic of elements, of inscriptions, of force. It is the magic of fire and earth, storm and sea, space and time."
"Second," he raised another finger, "is the magic of the Self. It is a magic of enhancement, of healing, of domination. It is the magic of the mind and body, of wit and charm, of truth and deception."
"Third," he raised a final finger, "is the Transcendental magic. It is the magic bound in one's soul. It is the core of a person, the unique, the ideal. It is their very Concept, bound to them and them alone. The third magic is the most important. Why is that, boy?"
"Is… is it the most powerful?"
His cane smashed into my wrist. I cried out in pain.
"Quiet," he demanded, voice even but cruel. "Or you will get another."
I shook, but held back my tears.
"Your mother's coddling has done you no favors. Your mind is puerile. Brutish. There is no greater power in any form of magic over any other. A lowly Vav with a gun can claim to have something as simple as 'power.' It is meaningless.
"No. The value of the Transcendental Magic is that it is the proof of one's identity. It cannot be taught or copied or stolen. It cannot be given or taken. Even a Vav could learn the First and Second magics if they learned of their existence. But the Third is forever out of their reach.
"The Concept stands as proof of one's bearing: nobility inherent to the soul. Lord Charlemagne's Avatar. House Talmont's Narcissus. Even our own humble Protean. The Concept is the proof from on high of our place in this world. It is the ineffable mark of status and breeding."
My grandfather rapped his cane. "I will be teaching you to wield Protean personally. Tutors will instruct you on the other magics. I expect quick progress from you, boy. I will not have my time wasted. To begin, you must meditate…"
My grandfather was brutal. The lessons were relentless. Physical conditioning. Etiquette. History. Arithmetic. Language. Natural Philosophy. Every lesson rolled after the other, a gamut of exhaustion, all under the exacting gaze of my grandfather and the tutors he acquired. Every mistake was punished harshly.
Day in and out, when I wasn't sleeping I was learning. I didn't have a moment to myself. It was a far cry from the easy-going school life I remembered with my friends.
I was exhausted. I was in pain. I was alone.
There was no joy in this new world, only constant discipline and unachievable demands.
"You are too far behind," my grandfather would claim. "In the proper course, you would have begun when you were four. You will not be permitted to remain so stunted."
Before anything else, I was taught to serve. It was the core of my training, the fundamental thread around which all other lessons revolved. Every scrap of knowledge that was forced into my brain, every practiced form, every polished skill, were all to be in service of my new masters. Everything I learned was to make me a better servant.
"Our family has the splendid fortune to serve the Marquessate of Talmont," my grandfather would say. "We can only hope to match this honor through utter perfection. We are the prized tools of House Talmont. It is our duty to serve as befitting their station."
There were other children around me. Some were older, some were younger. None were my age. They would glare at me, hateful, disdainful. In some ways they were worse than my pitiless tutors. Even if they had been friendly, my grandfather discouraged me from speaking with them. "Unremarkable tools," he would call them. "Knives that would dull us out of jealousy."
"If you have the energy to mingle, you are not training as you ought," he would say. "You are still behind where you should be."
I spent my life at the manor exhausted, alone, afraid. I was lonely. I was miserable. Once, I tried to run away, to flee back to my mother and the life I had lost.
My grandfather was… displeased. I never dared to try again.
When I turned eleven, my life changed once more.
"You are of age with the heir," my grandfather declared. "This is your greatest asset, that which places you above all the grasping snakes. The timing of your birth is, perhaps, the only accomplishment I will acknowledge of your mother." My grandfather did not speak about my mother often. He did not permit me to speak about her either. "The heir of Talmont has reached the age of social obligations. You will serve him in all things, in all ways. Become his friend, boy, his boon companion, his personal servant. Earn the ear of the future Marquis of House Talmont. This is your duty, to this family and to all of House Talmont. You are not permitted to fail."
With that, and without further warning, my training suddenly eased. Where before every waking moment was to be spent in agonized practice. But now, I had free time: time I was to dedicate to attending my new master
And so, I met Augustus d'Talmont, future Marquis of the Great House of Talmont.
Augustus was a handsome boy, finely dressed, with an easy smile. His cheeks were chubby like any at-ease child. He had a small cadre of friends: the children of vassal houses that matched him in age. It became my duty to serve them.
It did not take long for me to come to hate them all.
Augustus did not waste any time ordering me about, sending me to and fro on useless tasks for his amusement. He set up little games against himself and his friends, knowing I would not be permitted to win. He loved to hold little spars in the yard, aping at real combat.
I was to hold back, my grandfather demanded. I was to accept each and every blow with a smile.
Lazy. Arrogant. Spoiled. I did not know which word best described that slothful little swine.The boy would shirk from his studies, demanding that I complete his assignments in his place. He would flee from his tutors; put the barest effort into his training. I was his go-to cover, a distraction to throw at his minders so he could play with his friends.
This was the vaunted heir of House Talmont? The great scion of the glorious house that demanded my family's unquestioned obedience? This sniveling little whiny boy was supposed to be my superior in every way? I was supposed to cozy up to him?
Not a day had gone by since my grandfather had snatched me from my home that I hadn't hated. My life had been a seething broil, a parade of abuse and misery and loneliness.
I hated my grandfather. I hated House Talmont. I hated every lesson that I was forced to take on pain of punishment.
And, as Augustus and his band of little friends pummeled me in the gut, crooning in victory as if they had actually earned it, as if they hadn't been lazily running away from training exercises so much less brutal than those I was forced to endure every single day…
My hate only grew deeper.
Imagine my surprise when a young, bespeckled girl threw herself out of the third story window, crashing into Heir Augustus d'Talmont's face, foot first.
The heir of the house went flying from the surprise kick, rolling across the field. The girl bounced off him and landed on her feet with perfect poise.
Augustus's friends recoiled.
The boy himself rubbed his bruised face. "What the heck, Catherine?! That hurt!"
Catherine d'Talmont. I'd heard of her before then, of course, but this was the first time I had ever seen her. She was Augustus's first cousin, about the same age as him and myself. She kept mostly to herself, reading in the House's extensive library, and lacked any personal servants as of yet. Augustus never invited her to any of his games, never interacted with her in the slightest.
I had heard rumors that she had been a contender for the heirship some years ago, but then she had manifested with the wrong Concept. Seeing as she lacked House Talmont's signature magic, the position of heir fell into Augustus's lap uncontested.
Catherine, from what I had heard, was a quiet and unobtrusive girl. Definitely not the sort to dropkick a boy from a third story library window.
"It is beneath our station to bully servants," she declared, drolly. Her eyes were locked on her cousin, not once glancing to where I was lying on the ground by her feet. "I suggest you find less puerile amusements, cousin. You are no longer a child."
"We're just playing," Augustus groaned. "Marcus is fine. No need to get upset about things. We are practicing how to fight."
"Perhaps you would be better served by sparring with someone who is permitted to fight back, hm? I imagine it would be more educational."
"What, you? Feh. It would be unchivalrous for me to beat up a girl, you know."
"And it would be improper for me to throw my future Head of House into a lake," Catherine retorted, holding his gaze. "Shall I assume you are declining my offer?"
Augustus looked away. "This is getting boring. Come on guys, let's play something else. I think we left the football by the shed."
The heir led his gaggle of friends away from his cousin. I spared the girl a final glance before I followed, but she did not look at me.
It took almost a week before I managed to find Catherine again. With some conniving, I managed to get Augustus to demand I fetch a book for him. I took well advantage of that order to find and approach Catherine in the Library.
I did not waste a single moment approaching her. "Please," I bowed my head as low as I could manage. "Take me on as your Personal Servant."
I needed a master who was willing to protect me, who wouldn't spend their time abusing me. My grandfather would be upset, but he wouldn't be able to argue if a Lady of House Tarmont requested my service specifically.
"I refuse," Catherine said, her eyes never leaving her book.
I clenched my fists. "I can assure you, I am properly qualified. I am more than capable to serve as your protector, to aid you in your tasks. I am training in a variety of skills and arts, and am well educated in all prudent matters." I inhaled. "Please. Allow me to serve you."
Her eyes met mine. They were a piercing brown. She held my gaze.
"I have no desire for servants who do not wish to serve," she said simply.
I grit my teeth. "You are mistaken, my lady. I desire nothing more than to serve you and House Talmont."
"You are lying," she said without a moment's pause. "But don't worry. I am not upset. It is expected for people to lie about that sort of thing."
I held her gaze, refusing to back down. I could see her evaluate me.
"Very well," she said. "I will allow you to make your case, in word and in deed. Convince me of your earnest intent and I will permit you to serve me."
There was a finality to her words, a forgone conclusion already in her mind. I could see that I was already being dismissed, discarded. She was humoring me.
It was in this second meeting, in these first words spoken, that my impression of the girl was solidified.
Catherine d'Talmont was an arrogant jerk.