"So?"
"How have you been? How do you feel about our mission? Are there any developments in your skills regarding which you need to appraise me?"
In other words, you want to know the things that don't get logged in the records.
"Well enough. It's a job. I'm… Not a god..?"
"Me neither."
Not yet. but you're getting there,
kind of.
I take a seat on the opposite side of the refectory table, the various L.E.G.I.O.N.-affiliated personnel around us suddenly taking a great deal more interest. At least, those who aren't heading for what they imagine to be minimum safe distance.
Come on. Becoming a god's not that hard. Have these people even met a god?
With OL, the splash zone is quite
large. I expect a few have discreetly started filming, just in case something
funny happens...
"And I wasn't expecting you to be a god. I was wondering how much progress you'd made in finding out what it is that you most value?"
Her eyes drop to… Her copy of 'The Grace of Aulier'? A religious book from her homeworld.
But that would be more of a
Hope thing than a
Want. Still, good to see she's looking for
something.
"I'm not finding it here." She stares into my eyes. "How did you become immortal?"
"Did you try reading my book?"
If it's written anything like this, it must have been
interesting.
She nods. "You abhor decay."
I extend my right forefinger and point to a worn section of her book at it is restored back to prime condition. Then a scuff on the table, a faint stain…
What a
delightful understatement.
"I abhor decay. My environmental shield undoes it without me even really thinking about it."
"How do you get like that?"
Well, for a
start, it involved merging with the Ophidian. Not something for a casual Orange Lantern without a good understanding of their
wants to attempt...
"I don't know, exactly. I didn't grow up in a-" I point to her book again. "-religious household. But I did go to a religious primary school. And I wasn't really… I'm not naturally inclined to question things that I'm told-."
She blinks, her mouth falling open slightly for a moment before she closes it again, trying to make it look like she wasn't astonished.
Indeed. That's not exactly the image other people see of him much of the time. Then again... As we saw in his briefings with Dox, he usually only asks questions to clarify details, but rarely do we see him say 'No, that's not right.'
"I grew up surrounded by trustworthy people. I know, I was lucky. But when the local vicar gave weekly sermons I just… Accepted that was how the universe worked. And then… When I learned a little more about the world around me, I couldn't relate the fantastical stuff that he was saying with.. practical reality. That was when I first came to believe that death was permanent."
"It still is for most people."
Then you haven't been working hard
enough at it. Much like a sensible wizard, a good Orange Lantern is very,
very hard to kill. OL has just taken it to the point that he's even harder to keep
dead.
I shake my head.
"No. Lantern Corps policy involves shipping our corpses back to our homeworlds where possible, or a friendly world where it's not. Your soul will end up somewhere. Did you see my tattoos?"
Admittedly, there isn't always a
lot to ship back sometimes.
"… Yes."
"That's what I had to do to even get a soul. Well before I developed my current level of pain resistance, I volunteered to have my flesh branded so I could benefit from something that you've had your entire life at no cost." I lean back slightly. "Once I stopped believing in God, I stopped believing in souls. And if souls didn't exist, death was inevitable oblivion."
And there's the start of his thanatophobia, eh?
"Yes?"
"I can only assume that it was more of a shock to me than it is to you because I had previously believed that it wasn't the case."
Well, not every culture has an afterlife equivalent after all. For some, it's merely in being honoured by others. For others, it's a literal place their soul goes. I wouldn't be surprised if each of her planet's religions had different ideas about it...
"That was it?"
"There was an encounter with a dead chicken as well, but… Yes. I don't like me decaying. I don't like the things around me decaying. The first thing-."
...I won't ask, it's probably a messed up memory. But most people's first brush with actual death
is often a dead animal or the like...
"The first thing you did with your ring was improve your body."
"I can heal myself very easily, too."
And unlike that
first time, you know to block your pain receptors when you do it.
"So without having gone through those experiences, I can't make myself immortal."
"No, you probably can. Just not in the same way. Is there really no long-term goal that you're working towards? I-" I shake my head and shrug. "-mean, anything."
This is probably going to be a running theme for those more interested in the
esoteric side of Orange Light use. Since each person's desires are unique, so will their path towards
Enlightenment...
She thinks for a moment.
"Which god?"
"Ah… In my home parallel, we haven't had contact with other intelligent species. I don't know if there's anything like the Source Wall. But it was a monotheistic religion worshipping an all-powerful creator deity."
To be fair, that's probably a concept that turns up on
every planet now and again. So it wouldn't be completely unknown to her.
"My peo-. My homeworld had several religions. All they were for me was a source of curse words."
"You didn't grow up with one in-" I point to the book again. "-particular?"
"I'm going through them in alphabetical order. No."
Well, that's certainly a
thorough way to apply yourself to a task... Bet she's noticed a few running themes and similarities between them. After all, most members of a species have
some ideas in common.
"Okay, so you don't specifically want to be immortal."
"I want to be immortal. I just don't want it as hard as you do. I'm so used to things decaying that it doesn't seem wrong to me."
An odd way to look at it, but hey... Whatever works. I'm sure there's
something that'll get you invested in it.
"If you're interested in taking that route, I know a few telepaths-."
"No."
See? You're invested in
not wanting your mind to be messed with. It's a good start.
"Ah, progress! You-."
"I value my mental integrity over becoming a better Lantern."
Which will mean
your Orange Light will allow you to shrug off mental effects more easily.
"'Better' is a loaded term. There's no one right way to be an Orange Lantern. Though-. Have you ever visited Larfleeze?" I get a shallow nod. "That's the wrong way."
"Because he has no desires that are actually his own, he just acts on pure desire."

...Huh. That... That is honestly an
interesting viewpoint on it. It makes sense, too. He mainlined
Avarice for so long that his
own desires were buried underneath the collectives wants of the universe. Like one grain of sand in a desert.
"That's not a terrible answer. I honestly hadn't thought of it like that." I nod. "But I think you're right. So… Okay, you're having a problem with a visceral drive. Working on pure intellectual desire. Where do you want to end up? If given a choice of jobs, which do you opt for, all other things being equal?"
"I like working with technology. But now I have-" She raises her left hand, ring shimmering. "-the most advanced piece of technology in the universe on my finger."
So, desire fulfilled. Now what? What do you want to use it
for?
"Do you want to learn to create them?"
"I could, but then I'd just have the ability to create something I've already got."
And why would you
need more than one ring? As OL's showed, extra rings only supply more
charge, and a good personal lantern can mitigate
that issue easily enough.
"Only machines it has a record of. Have you read the files on my homeworld scientists?"
"I picked up machines because it made me useful but not threatening. I don't have some great underlying love for technology."
Welp. What do you
want, then? When your power works on wanting things, you have to be able to focus on
something you
want, after all. The joy of satiation...
"Okay. Maybe we're taking the wrong approach, here."
"What do you mean?"
"You don't know of anything you really really want? So maybe you just need to try completely new things. How do you feel about model wargaming?"
See, that's a good idea. New experiences end up sparking new
wants.

But be honest, OL, you just want another player for your refined, balanced Warhammer, don't you?