VI.
The busride back from the Docks passed in skips and starts of disjointed thought. Taylor's mind bounced from Lisa to Emma to the memory of her swapping nodes and back and forth and back... she could almost feel another headache coming on. Just a regular headache, not the kind that felt like she was about to drop unconscious. It was a welcome change.
She put her fingers to her temples, pushing slow, steady circles as she replayed the end of the conversation in her head. Lisa had been surprised, but there was more too it than that. Something deeper. The way she'd glared, with that predatory smile... in that moment, Taylor had gone from being a plaything to a threat. She wasn't sure which one she disliked more. At least Lisa might take her seriously, if they saw each other again. Maybe a little too seriously. If she really
could read minds—and it definitely seemed that way—Taylor wasn't looking forward to it. Sure, they weren't technically enemies, but they sure as hell weren't friends, and if there was one thing she didn't need it was yet another vindictive teenage girl trying to actively ruin her life. It hadn't been a total loss, at least—she'd manage to learn something, no thanks to Lisa and her constant interruptions. Something she could
use.
Taylor leaned back against the crappy plastic seat and pulled open a few of the other passengers' Webs. Countless nodes shimmered before her, each one bristling with activity. She focused, picking out the related pairs, and carefully began to tug, coaxing them across the strands of meaning until they were fully shifted over. She tried swapping colors, places, names, things— anything and everything she could, though she made sure to change them back afterward. Every time a node
snapped into place, it felt a little bit easier, a little more natural. It was exhilarating and terrifying.
Some swaps, she quickly realized, were much harder than others. Things within the same mental cluster were the easiest—one color to another, or 'aunt' to 'uncle'. The further away each node was, and the more subshoots it had, the harder she had to push her changes through—but it was still
doable. That was the creepy part. Swapping 'enemy' with 'love' had taken a good three or four minutes of concentration and trying not to stare at the fratty-looking teenager whose Web she was manipulating, but she'd
done it...
And then promptly undone it, ping-ponging the nodes back into their rightful place with a rush of sickening guilt. Taylor wasn't sure how deep her new connections went—was she just changing the word, or the concept itself?—but using nodes like
that wasn't the way to find out, even if she had a suspicion it was only the former. Emotions and memories weren't words, after all. They were tied together, sometimes so closely you could barely pry them apart, but they weren't the same, and she didn't know how to get one from the other. Sometimes, when she shifted particularly heavy nodes, she felt a faint subconscious ripple of
feeling, little fleeting shards of happy-angry-sad, but that was all they were. Ripples. If there was something more there, something deeper, she didn't know what it was or how to use it. Another question to add to the ever-growing list.
The bus's brakes screeched as it pulled up to a light, making Taylor start. She glanced out the window, a frown slowly forming as she failed to recognize anything outside. She'd been riding for, what, 45 minutes now? Surely they had to be getting close— no, wait. There was the overpass, the intersection, the signs... she'd been so focused on her practice that she'd missed her stop. Pretty spectacularly, too; it was at least a good four miles back to her neighborhood.
Taylor pulled the stop cord, standing up and walking towards the door almost before the bus had stopped moving. She was eager to get home, but wasn't too upset about the walk—it would give her more time to practice.
It was another hour and a half before Taylor turned onto her street, feet aching slightly in her sneakers. There was a low roar up ahead; her neighbor, a grey-haired, sallow-faced man whose name she didn't know, was mowing his lawn. She gave him a little wave as she walked by, doing her best to avoid the occasional sprays of grass clippings, and he nodded back. In the time the exchange had taken, she'd rearranged all his color-words in a single coordinated tug, only to snap them back to normal half a second later. Fast, fluid, effortless. It was so
easy. Moving more distinct nodes was still tricky—she'd made far, far less progress on that front—but rearranging clusters was something she barely had to think about, though it still gave her headaches if she tried to shift too many at once. The odd ripples had been getting stronger, too, the more ambitious with her shifts she got—or maybe she was just better at noticing? Either way, that particular mystery would have to wait. She had plenty to focus on already.
The house was quiet, still, and annoyingly empty of Webs. It was only 4:30; Dad wouldn't be home for another few hours. She could use the time to finish up her assignments—some report for World Issues and a few chunks of busywork—but that wasn't going to happen. Not now, with a hundred what-ifs and fragments of possibility tangled up in her head. She almost wished she'd stayed downtown longer, but now that she was here...
Hm.
Lisa had been kind of a bitch, but she'd had a point. If she was going to develop her power, learn to actually apply it, she needed a name. well, she needed a lot more than that. The name was just a capstone, a neat bundle of what she stood for as a cape. Whatever that was. Even if she wasn't going to join the Wards, or a gang—and at the moment, she had zero plans of doing either— she still needed an
identity. Something she could point to when talking to other capes. Something to be known for... if she even wanted to be known.
Did she?
Taylor lay back on her bed, kicking off her shoes. What
did she want to do? Her power was useful, yeah. Insanely useful, in the right circumstances. But it wasn't useful like Alexandria, or Armsmaster, or Legend. She wasn't going to be fighting bad guys. Not directly, at least. But she could still probably do some good in the background, as long as she kept a low profile...
If you aren't press-ganged into the Protectorate first.
Taylor swallowed, staring up at the ceiling. It was a nasty, intrusive thought, crawling up from some dark crevasse of doubt and self-loathing, but she couldn't just push it away. Her power was—it was wonderful, and beautiful, and let her see and feel things no one else could—but it was also fucking
scary. It scared
her sometimes, just how fast she could work her way through someone's Web, leaving a trail of subtle tweaks and changes in her wake. Even if she kept everything above the line, dedicated her life to helping Brockton Bay, it wouldn't matter. People valued their minds, their words, their connections. She'd be tolerated at best, a pariah at worst...
Yeah. Going public, PRT or otherwise, was out of the question. But a name was still a good start.
Leaning halfway off her bed, Taylor fished out a notebook and a pen from the depths of her backpack, flipping open a fresh page. She started writing names as they came to her, one after another, filling up the lines in a stream-of-consciousness rush.
Web. Too straightforward, utilitarian.
Network. The same.
Fiber. Didn't really sound like a hero name.
Morpheme. It was a nice word, one she liked, but it was a mouthful.
Weaver?
She paused, tapping her pen against the page. That one was good, but it was a little on-the-nose. Crossing it out with the rest, she kept going:
Author. Scribe. Wordsmith. None of those were very intimidating, and they didn't really describe what she did anyway.
Lexis. Syntax Lemma. Lemma was another good one—a word in someone's head, chosen to be spoken but not actually said. It didn't really feel like a cape name, but it fit so well...
Taylor bit her lip, mentally sounding it out, then scribbled her pen across the word until it was an unrecognizable mass of ink.
Pattern. Method. Sequence. Strand. Array. Mesh. Nexus. Paradigm... Those last two weren't bad. They both sort of described her power, in a way just vague enough to keep things ambiguous. That was part of the point, of course—'Tattletale' wasn't exactly specific either, even if Lisa pretty much wore her Thinker status on her sleeve. But which one? Paradigm had that nice linguistic implication, but it could also mean an example, or a copy. Not quite what she was going for. Nexus was a perfect match for her power, but it sounded a little self-aggrandizing, which was the last thing she wanted. It was definitely between those two, though. The realization gave her a quiet thrill. She was going to be a
cape.
"Taylor?"
Dad's voice, from downstairs. Was he home early? Taylor frowned, looking at her bedside clock, her eyebrows arching in surprise as she saw the time. It was 6:30. She'd been absorbed in her superhero fantasies for almost two hours straight, and still had most of a World Issues essay and a math packet to do. With a heavy sigh, she forced herself up from her bed, pulling off her hoodie and making her way downstairs. The name would have to wait.
Danny Hebert was already in the kitchen, busy arranging pans on the stove and looking slightly more worn than usual. "Hey, Dad," Taylor greeted him, doing her best to sound upbeat. "How was your day?"
He didn't respond for a few seconds, looking down fiddling with the pilot light. There was a bag of groceries on the floor; Taylor hefted it onto the counter and began to put it away, using the crinkle of the paper to avoid the silence. "The usual," Dad finally said with a shrug. "You know how it is. What about you? School going okay?" She'd expected the deflection—it was what usually happened when she tried to prod him about how things were going—but it still annoyed her, just a little. It was so much worse now, too, when she had the answers literally right in front of her, floating through her head like tiny, tantalizing sparks. She could feel them there, quivering in anticipation, every node begging to be caressed, examined, freed, and she just wanted to help...
No, Taylor thought, pushing a bag of rice cakes into the pantry a bit harder than was necessary. She'd set limits for a reason. "Uh, yeah," she responded, grabbing a box of cereal next. "Pretty good." It wasn't a total lie—being surrounded by Webs for hours on end had made Winslow infinitely more bearable, even her social life was as bleak as ever. "Got a lot of homework, though."
"Don't stay up too late," Danny said, nodding absently as he cut open a tray of frozen meat. "Burgers sound good? They should take about half an hour."
"Yeah," she said, putting on a smile. "You want help?"
He shook his head. "I can handle two burgers. Taylor. You should get started on your work."
"Yeah." She retreated back upstairs, flopping right back down onto her bed and opening up the notebook. She'd have plenty of time for homework later tonight. This was more important. Probably.
Dinner was brief, quiet, and uneventful. Taylor ate quickly, doing her best to keep up something resembling a conversation while keeping her thoughts far, far away from her dad's Web. The moment she'd finished and cleaned up, she stood and left, hastily citing something about the essay. Dad just nodded, and she had to swallow down a hot bubble of guilt as she climbed the stairs. She didn't
want to be distant, but if she gave in and started looking, she'd feel even worse. It was better this way, at least for now, until she got a better handle on her power. The novelty of Webs would wear off eventually, she was sure, and once it had she'd be able to reign herself in.
Right? Right.
The homework had taken a lot longer than it should have. Taylor was normally pretty focused when she set her mind to something, but tonight, with so many things clamoring for recognition in her head, it pretty much but impossible. Every time she felt herself hitting a groove, she'd get distracted by some niggling thought—a name idea, a memory of Emma, a worry about Tattletale—and would have to force herself back on track. The essay was especially bad; she'd been so absorbed in picking apart her classmates' vocabularies that she'd realized, all too late, she had next to zero idea of the economics concepts they were supposed to be writing about. But she'd pushed through, even hitting a half-page over the minimum, and it was only—
Taylor glanced at the clock again. 11:30. She should've been asleep a while ago, and she
still hadn't decided on a name. As long as she was up, a few more minutes couldn't hurt. Turning back to her computer, she opened up the browser and began scrolling absently through the front pages of the international news sites she'd bookmarked. Swarms of words clamored for her attention, arranged in perfect rows and columns and dense with information, and she drank them in, feeling the familiar tingle in the back of her scalp... and then sighed, closing the tabs. One almost-all-nighter in a week was enough. Better to quit while she was only a little behind.
On a whim, she opened up the browser again and logged into her email, promising herself it would be the last thing she checked before she slept. It was more a habit at this point, anyway— the only things it got anymore were spam, college offers, and the occasional news or PHO notification, but—
Taylor frowned, her eyebrows pushing together as her inbox loaded. Two unread messages. One was yet another flyer from Brockton University, which she trashed immediately, but the other was a little more interesting: sent 5 minutes ago, from '
z3128030@5minmail.com'. No subject. She clicked on it, fully expecting an ad for 'real cape powers' or God knew what else in horribly mangled English, but as she scrolled to the body, she realized she'd been half-right: the message
was mangled, but it wasn't in English, or even anything close. The single string of characters was a tortured slurry of words from four or five different languages—Taylor recognized Japanese, Russian, French, and something that was probably Bulgarian, all phrased like they'd been run through the quickest online translator possible and strung together in a vaguely-coherent sentence that she had to reread four or five times to parse:
Nice trick. We should meet. Saturday at noon, city coffee shop. You know which. Always wanted to learn Spanish.
-L
Taylor let out a quiet but audible groan, closing the browser and jabbing at the computer's power button. Whatever
she wanted to learn, it sure as hell wasn't Spanish.