Cidicide
Mr Zoat
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17th October 2009
21:22 GMT -5
Komand'r twists her head around on my chest so that she can look me in the eyes, a mildly perturbed expression on her face.
"Do you think we've..?"
She hesitates, her frown deepening.
I raise my eyebrows, arms wrapping a little tighter around her torso as we lie on the sofa. "We've..?"
"Gotten… Boring."
"I can't say I've ever tried to live my life on the basis of how interesting it would be to read about."
I raise my gaze to look around our living room. Photographs of our wedding, our friends and our son decorate the surfaces, my skull collection having been relocated to my athenaeum. A few of Alikand'r's toys have been left on the floor were they fell, but other than that it's a fairly normal upper class living room. Nothing to suggest that it's home to a couple of galaxy-renowned bounty hunters. Is.. that what she means?
"If you don't like the decorations-?"
"No, not the-." She sighs, the back of her head falling back onto my chest. "It's-. When was the last time we killed someone?"
"Two days ago."
She frowns. "Was it?"
"Toyman?" Her frown deepens. "He had those giant windup soldiers-."
"Oh him." She considers the matter, and her frown deepens further. "Why didn't I remember that? It was only a couple of days ago."
"If tamaranean brains work like human brains, it's probably because it didn't stand out."
Her brow relaxes a little. "What do you mean?"
"We've killed a lot of people, right?"
"Yeah?"
"So the first time you kill someone, that's a big deal. But after that, you're just repeating yourself. It's not a new experience so your brain doesn't encode it in the same way."
"You mean…" She relaxes very slightly into my chest. "It feels like we've been doing less fighting lately, but actually..?"
I smile, shifting my calves across her thighs-.
"No, seriously, not-. 'Fighting' each other." She tilts her head back again so that she's looking at me upside down. "It's bothering me."
I nod, then generate a construct time/kills line graph in the air in front of us. There're troughs and peaks, but the average is relatively consistent month on month.
"Slightly fewer assassinations and slightly more mass killings, but the total hasn't actually changed much."
"So they're.. just not memorable enough."
"That's one way of putting it. But it's more about how new an experience is than absolute quality. Even if the fight is amazing, there isn't all that much difference between an amazing fight and a mundane one. After a while they all sort of blur together-."
"And I keep wondering where all the time went. Because it passes without me really making any new memories." She move her arms so that they're laying on mine. "Huh."
"Basically. But that's… Pretty normal. When you're young everything is new, and then as you get older you learn what sort of things you like doing and start doing that more."
"But then you're just doing the same kind of thing and not anything that's going to stick in your brain." Her face creases. "So that's it? We either make ourselves miserable or stop being able to remember things?"
"Do you remember last time you read to Alikand'r?"
"Yeah, that was about.. three hours ago. I read him The Very Hungry Caterpillar." She wrinkles her nose. "Human children's books are weird."
"And before that?"
"The farm book. The one with the pop-up animals. I remember-."
She jerks up into a sitting position, pushing my legs aside as she twists around to face me.
"I thought my brain was going to stop.. sabotaging me after I gave birth." Her eyes narrow and glow faintly. "Have you gotten me pregnant again? I said, one!"
I sit up, wrap my arms around Koriand'r's back and then fall back, pulling her face into the crook of my neck.
"No, the mood swing you had when you were pregnant is… Something I'm never going to forget, and it wasn't like this. This is actually normal. For humans, as well as tamaraneans."
"So we're just… Normal?"
"Normal for us. Or… Stable. I mean, is there anything in our life that you don't like?"
She opens her mouth to reply, then closes it again, thinking deeply.
"All your enemies in Vega are dead. Tamaran is rebuilding. Your other enemies are dead or cowed into compliance. You have me and Alikand'r. Did we miss anyone you hate?"
"I don't think so. Unless I got so used to hating that I forgot someone."
"Okay then. What is it that you don't have that you still want?"
"It's not about being in a good place objectively. Right? I-." She lifts her head up to do a quick check of the room. "I love you and Alikand'r. And I want to make sure that he has the childhood I didn't get."
"I want him to have the childhood you didn't get too."
She inhales deeply, then exhales sharply.
"Okay. I want to do more fighting, but fighting I'll actually remember. Different fighting. Does Earth have fighting tournaments?"
"So many fighting tournaments. But most of them don't let aliens or people with superpowers take part."
"Underground fighting tournaments?"
"They'd be more likely to run away than fight us. We've got a bit of a reputation."
"Then-. Where are we supposed to get memorable fights?"
19th October 2009
09:02 GMT -5
"So, um."
On the opposite sofa, Blue Beetle looks like he's really regretting offering to do these interviews. Next to me, Komand'r smiles and gives my hand a light squeeze. This should deal with her problem nicely.
"What do you think you'd bring to the Justice League?"
21:22 GMT -5
Komand'r twists her head around on my chest so that she can look me in the eyes, a mildly perturbed expression on her face.
"Do you think we've..?"
She hesitates, her frown deepening.
I raise my eyebrows, arms wrapping a little tighter around her torso as we lie on the sofa. "We've..?"
"Gotten… Boring."
"I can't say I've ever tried to live my life on the basis of how interesting it would be to read about."
I raise my gaze to look around our living room. Photographs of our wedding, our friends and our son decorate the surfaces, my skull collection having been relocated to my athenaeum. A few of Alikand'r's toys have been left on the floor were they fell, but other than that it's a fairly normal upper class living room. Nothing to suggest that it's home to a couple of galaxy-renowned bounty hunters. Is.. that what she means?
"If you don't like the decorations-?"
"No, not the-." She sighs, the back of her head falling back onto my chest. "It's-. When was the last time we killed someone?"
"Two days ago."
She frowns. "Was it?"
"Toyman?" Her frown deepens. "He had those giant windup soldiers-."
"Oh him." She considers the matter, and her frown deepens further. "Why didn't I remember that? It was only a couple of days ago."
"If tamaranean brains work like human brains, it's probably because it didn't stand out."
Her brow relaxes a little. "What do you mean?"
"We've killed a lot of people, right?"
"Yeah?"
"So the first time you kill someone, that's a big deal. But after that, you're just repeating yourself. It's not a new experience so your brain doesn't encode it in the same way."
"You mean…" She relaxes very slightly into my chest. "It feels like we've been doing less fighting lately, but actually..?"
I smile, shifting my calves across her thighs-.
"No, seriously, not-. 'Fighting' each other." She tilts her head back again so that she's looking at me upside down. "It's bothering me."
I nod, then generate a construct time/kills line graph in the air in front of us. There're troughs and peaks, but the average is relatively consistent month on month.
"Slightly fewer assassinations and slightly more mass killings, but the total hasn't actually changed much."
"So they're.. just not memorable enough."
"That's one way of putting it. But it's more about how new an experience is than absolute quality. Even if the fight is amazing, there isn't all that much difference between an amazing fight and a mundane one. After a while they all sort of blur together-."
"And I keep wondering where all the time went. Because it passes without me really making any new memories." She move her arms so that they're laying on mine. "Huh."
"Basically. But that's… Pretty normal. When you're young everything is new, and then as you get older you learn what sort of things you like doing and start doing that more."
"But then you're just doing the same kind of thing and not anything that's going to stick in your brain." Her face creases. "So that's it? We either make ourselves miserable or stop being able to remember things?"
"Do you remember last time you read to Alikand'r?"
"Yeah, that was about.. three hours ago. I read him The Very Hungry Caterpillar." She wrinkles her nose. "Human children's books are weird."
"And before that?"
"The farm book. The one with the pop-up animals. I remember-."
She jerks up into a sitting position, pushing my legs aside as she twists around to face me.
"I thought my brain was going to stop.. sabotaging me after I gave birth." Her eyes narrow and glow faintly. "Have you gotten me pregnant again? I said, one!"
I sit up, wrap my arms around Koriand'r's back and then fall back, pulling her face into the crook of my neck.
"No, the mood swing you had when you were pregnant is… Something I'm never going to forget, and it wasn't like this. This is actually normal. For humans, as well as tamaraneans."
"So we're just… Normal?"
"Normal for us. Or… Stable. I mean, is there anything in our life that you don't like?"
She opens her mouth to reply, then closes it again, thinking deeply.
"All your enemies in Vega are dead. Tamaran is rebuilding. Your other enemies are dead or cowed into compliance. You have me and Alikand'r. Did we miss anyone you hate?"
"I don't think so. Unless I got so used to hating that I forgot someone."
"Okay then. What is it that you don't have that you still want?"
"It's not about being in a good place objectively. Right? I-." She lifts her head up to do a quick check of the room. "I love you and Alikand'r. And I want to make sure that he has the childhood I didn't get."
"I want him to have the childhood you didn't get too."
She inhales deeply, then exhales sharply.
"Okay. I want to do more fighting, but fighting I'll actually remember. Different fighting. Does Earth have fighting tournaments?"
"So many fighting tournaments. But most of them don't let aliens or people with superpowers take part."
"Underground fighting tournaments?"
"They'd be more likely to run away than fight us. We've got a bit of a reputation."
"Then-. Where are we supposed to get memorable fights?"
19th October 2009
09:02 GMT -5
"So, um."
On the opposite sofa, Blue Beetle looks like he's really regretting offering to do these interviews. Next to me, Komand'r smiles and gives my hand a light squeeze. This should deal with her problem nicely.
"What do you think you'd bring to the Justice League?"
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